Perpetual Dreams

Positive Vibration

2012-01-12T06:01:00.000-08:00

sometimes on certain days, i would have random thoughts that i would make a mental note to jot it down in this blog. i guess 80 percent of it never made it here. i guess that's what a blog is about right? putting down random thoughts? well at least most blogs are. that's why almost everyone has a blog right? because putting down random thoughts and pictures or where we've been, what we ate, posting about first loves and break ups. or bitching about others. or having a point of view. these are the easiest things that one could write about. nobody is required to write about rocket science or dissertation in their blogs. unless if you want to.

well as for me, i guess it's all of the above? apart from the rocket science thing, of course. i cant say much about the stupid/ intelligence factor about myself, because everyone who thinks that they are smart, must have felt stupid at some point in their lives, or vice versa. but i think that sometimes, "smart" is more of a point of view, than an actuality.

i've read blogs of ppl, mostly ppl my age, or older.. and they would have random aha-moments, like "i wonder if .. or i feel that people are.. bla bla bla.. how come this and that.. why am i here .. etc.". and then they would feel real proud of themselves, like whoa.... what kind of mad existentialist genius am i to have thought about that? most times i would read it and would silently go.. yea, girl.. i thought about that too when i was 5. so whats the big hoo-haa here about?

the thing is, if anybody can think of any thoughts in this world, however weird or random or profound even. chances are, these thoughts have existed a long time ago, or if you're lucky enough, just a few days old. from a far far away land or just 2 blocks away. chances are, nothing is original. so the first person who invented the handphone may not really be the first person that came up with the idea. chances are, many many years ago, someone had actually thought about it, and he may not be the first person who came up with the idea either, it was the previous previous person. seriously, same goes to Iphone. sorry to all steve jobs fans out there. well of course, merely a thought and an invention is totally 2 different thing.

i guess having thoughts is one of the easiest thing that a human could do. in fact, its way much more harder to free your mind from thoughts and to just let your mind hang empty. it's how a person strings its thoughts together and to be able to illustrate it in a way that everyone almost could. well, almost. but could not. and it must all be done in a coherent manner, otherwise it's just mad ramblings and teenage thoughts. no offense to the teenagers out there. but that's just my opinion anyways.

that's how it is isnt it? where people would get really in awe in a certain sentence they read, or certain songs they listen. they would go " oh, you speak exactly what my mind was trying to say" or" you speak what's in my heart that my mind couldnt speak" or " it makes me realize of thoughts or emotions that i never realized i would have". it's always after they hear or read of certain things that they would feel this way isnt it? its never before, always after. perhaps most humans operate on just half- thoughts? hence we all have a subconscious? or perhaps they are all too busy to tend to the bigger problems in life, careers, families, mortgages. that's why it's always an author/ novelist/ artist/ filmmakers job to handle such idle thoughts? perhaps such thought are for the idle people, i guess that's why most teenagers has a blog, writing frivolous thoughts. ranting about how unfair the world is or write wannabe songs. some aspiring to write wannabe movies.

or for people like me. unemployed, free from the encumbrances of being a student, free of mortgages, free of the pressure of climbing up the career or social ladder. yet still full of worries about the present or the future. why? i have loans and liabilities too, liabilities that i know that i wouldnt be able to pay presently, if not for my dad. but that has been the least of my problems. for now.

starting the year in singapore

2012-01-06T02:07:00.000-08:00

well i lurve fullerton too.

the view from the 38th floor of marina bay sands. which we managed to stay for one night. but it was still great. :)

came back from singapore last week. it was fun. and gosh i lurve the prawn noodles there, that you wouldnt wanna eat the ones with teeny tiny shrimps in malaysia anymore. not much time to shop or to go for sight seeing tho, i dont know where the time went.

more planning, less impromptu next time.

as for orchard, we've only managed to go to the famous h €€and m retail store.

and i've only managed to take 3 pictures with my blackberry. me and my cousin sis did bring our cameras. but we've never thought of taking a single pic when we were there. and i didnt even took pic of the fireworks during new year. hmm.. next round then.

i've heard of a friend's friend in her late 20's who calls singapore.. here goes.. wait for it * drum rolls*.... sin city. as in like non-stop gushing bout being in sin city * as in singapore* and rodeo drive. seriously?! are you kidding me ? sin city? are you like wat.. 18? so obssesed with sin city and rodeo drive eh. so if sin city is singapore then rodeo drive must be.. the strip of malls in orchard? or is it the little shops in bugis? lol

okay, i call singapore sin sometimes, more as a short form, tho it may not be an accurate form of short form. something that i've never given much thought about it till i heard about sin city girl. so that's different.. i hope? lololol

and thanks to the chin family for being such wonderful hosts. and thanks to the tan family for hosting such wonderful lunch too.

a lil dedication to..

2011-12-23T08:23:00.000-08:00

Dear Vito,

Happy birthday!

Thank you for all the words and wisdom that you've given me.

you're the best 'vito' one could ever ask for.

I wish you all the best in everything you do,
and that life would be as kind to you as possible.

xoxo

krys

I threw it away

2011-12-11T08:08:00.000-08:00

again, am blogging from my blackberry. and the past few times that i've been blogging from my phone consist of me laying in my room, with the lights off. usually the decision to blog stems from insomnia.. or from too much thinking, too much thoughts goin inside my head. especially at moments like these, where i would resort to creating senseless composition like these, senseless in the sense where there ain't directions, i hav no idea how this post would began, and how it is goin to end afterwards. as im texting these words..

usually this would be the case if im doin up a post from my bb. i don't have a topic in hand, so i'll just let my thoughts wander.

up till now, i've noticed that its only when i have too much thoughts inside that i would resort to blogging. it does help to ease some of it, to a certain extent. its rather like writing in a diary. speaking of which, i've been writing in journals ever since i was 8, me and a classmate, we used to write it, and exchange it for each of us to read. so its kinda like... we were actually writing it for the other person to read, not so much of writing for ourselves or to write down our deepest thoughts or secrets but more of thinking of what to write for that person to see today (we would write in it every night and show it to each other tomorrow in class)

of course, as a child back then, i couldnt make out the difference. it was all the same to me. and i didnt realise i was writing only what i thought she'll like to read, or that all that we ever wrote about was how happy we were and how the best of friends we were. to me, those were exactly what a diary should be. i dont remember much of what i wrote after that, or what she wrote. i dont remember how long our diary routine lasted either. or how it suddenly stop, was it gradual, or abbrupt?

of the things i do remember, was how that diary looked like. it has a box that holds a beautiful book inside. best of all, it had a lock with a pair of keys. a lock which could be opened merely by using a hairpin. lol.

i do remember how i felt at that time, the excitement of the prospect of exchanging diaries with a best friend. i remember that there was no unhappy thoughts inside that diary. only good and happy thoughts, of sincere wishes to the friend, and of how lucky and blessed this 8 years old kid had felt. i managed to block out all the not so happy ones, the deep secrets that i kept, and somehow when i was writing in it, only my happiness, the people that've made me happysuch as my parents and relatives, and my 'best friend' existed.

Marchesa Resort 2012

2011-11-17T23:35:00.001-08:00

One of my fav color. Mint green. starting this post off in a rather self-centered tone. i reckon that this dinner dress would be perfect for me. or rather, the other way round. my skin thrives in cool-toned colors. all i need in extra is just a pair of nude colored stilettos.

i think that the embellishment on the shoulders would be perfect for broad or narrow shoulders, as the former helps to enhance and the latter helps to camouflage. now all you need is a pair of long legs.

again, i have a thing for pale yellow dresses, altho that may not necessarily look as good on me as it is on others. yellow isn't my best color.

This one.. honestly, it is perfect enough even if one wears it as a wedding gown. my favourite piece in the sum of the resort collection.

again, pale yellow dresses..

i think that, one may find this not as beautiful as the rest, but i don't know.. it looks really nice to me.

i think that every girls should at least attempt on wearing animal prints once in their life. and this is one of the best edition of prints that i've seen as compared to other leopard print dresses.

One of my fav color. this isn't light pink if you look closely. it's a soft shade of rose blush pink that is neither a 'cool-tone' or 'warm'.

If only one could afford Marchesa right?

i've noticed, from my previous post till now, some of the clothes may be somewhat similar in style and patterns. i realized that, i only pick styles that i like or one that i would foresee myself wearing. and by merely writing about fashion or posting up pictures of dresses that i like, a form of 'pattern' or style could be traced from the previous posts. it makes me realized which type of clothes would be my ideal and which type of clothes that i wouldn't even imagine myself wearing.

i used to be 'all over the place' when it comes to fashion, choosing things at the spur of the moment and not really knowing what i like or dislike as long as it looked good to me at that moment or it that would be depended on the influence of other people. i believe many girls are the same way too, and many older women as well. so i would suggest to any girls who wants to find their sense of style or to be familiar with their style preferences could cut out pictures of clothes or people wearing what they like and put it in a scrapbook, if they don't own a fashion blog ( or in my case, a personal blog where i post almost everything inside, like a 'rojak').
well, just a piece of suggestion to the fashion enthusiast. other wise, why bother, right? some would have far more important hobbies to pursue, say.. Dota or stamp-collecting ( which i did too in the past).

the shoes that reminds me of

2011-11-12T07:49:00.000-08:00

its been quite a while ever since i last posted anything here, been contemplating on posting up on about marchesa(one of my fav designer brands, well if you ask me, it's fashion that i luv, not so much of being brand conscious or materialistically conscious, but here's the thing,with fashion, you can't eliminate the brands. because the latest trends are researched and dream up by high- end designers who then turns it to reality, then.. inspired, or rather.. copied by high - street brands like zara, topshop or unbranded items that are imported from places like hk or taiwan, hence reaching commoners like me..or you, perhaps? so i think there's a distinction between being brand- conscious and loving clothes. ) fall/ winter '2011 collection last night, but decided to catch up reading on candace bushnell's one fifth avenue instead.

i do admit that it's not as tho i hav been super busy every day, but with all the exams and assignments due every week, sometimes you just wanna curl up in bed and read a book instead after completing what needs to be done. any further procrastination tho, it will soon be spring / summer' 2012 instead when im only about to review on the fall collection.

currently blogging from my phone, i can't decide if this is more convenient or the laptop. i've never really been that technologically inclined or interested in terms of the latest laptops, the latest gadgets or the latest processors, so long it's not a celeron or something equivalent. part of the reason why i decided on forgoing an ipad 2. * and partly because i decided it was better for me as a student to save up my rm2000+ coupled with the casing.*

i've noticed that many blogs gets abandoned after several years, i will never abandon my blog, and no matter how busy or not life gets in the future.. i will always come back.

sometimes it does

2011-09-08T13:09:00.001-07:00

i woke up all of a sudden just now and turned to look at my phone.* its 4 am*. *screw the time stated in my blog it's off*. waking up at wee hours in the morning ain't that much peculiar to me.sometimes it does happen to me. but most of the time (at this hour especially) i would be pigging away. so i thought of being here for a while before i head back to dreamland. tho i do admit that i was more of a late sleeper in the past *and sometimes in the present* but i do try to sleep early recently.. say.. like around 12 to 1 plus at night?..

and i think its time i start using an eyecream.. in the mean time, i think i better head back to sleep. perhaps i'll go back to that place again.. as a kid, i remember i sometimes used to dream i was alice ( it was my favourite classic) and i would find myself in wonderland, and the queen of hearts and her troop of cards would be there, albeit always being a slighter different version. i suppose it's safe to say that i wanted my own wonderland, so i dreamed one up.afterall.. that was krystal's dream. not alice's. ever since, i never managed to go back there again.

till september ends

2011-09-03T06:08:00.000-07:00

it's already september. and my birthday is getting nearer by the day.. 23 more days, and i will be 24. well not that im happily looking forward to it. im one of those people who dread birthdays. which is ironic because when i was a child, my birthday is the only one thing that i had looked forward to (beside chinese new year, which i have come to dread *secretly*) and especially on the morning of my birthday, i would wake up with a smile plastered my face and i would felt like the luckiest little girl in the whole wide world. i just felt so lucky and happy, come to think of it now, i wonder where did all the happiness came from, i think it's wonderful that children are such 'happy pistachios' and one moment they'll be crying, and before you know it.. they'll resume to being a 'happy pistachio' :D. i guess that's part of the reasons why i luv being around children, somehow being with them takes my mind off whatever thoughts or situation that was bothering me at that moment. i remember that there was once that i went to a place where it is sorta like an orphanage/daycare center for one of my psych projects a few years ago, teaching/entertaining/playing activities with them.. that sorta stuff. it was satisfying but, i had hoped that we could have done more or stayed for the whole day. okay.. let me be honest here, im not much of a social worker nor am i a goodwill ambassador else i would have gone to be a social worker instead of slaving my years studying materials that would most likely be useless by the time i work. i guess it stems from more of a selfish reason more than anything, besides making the kids happy for the few hours, i was happy too being surrounded by them, if only for a mere few hours. not that i was extremely unhappy. like i've said, it takes my mind off things.

i have ceased on throwing out birthday parties since i was 19. but has maintain on cutting birthday cakes simply cos i like eating cakes, a lot. no party watsoever, just cake-cutting with whoever who were present. well, not that i hate birthday parties.. i dont mind goin to other ppl's. just that my own would be too much of a hassle to me.
as for the 'dreading' thing.. it's a rather weird feeling. it's not that i hate it. im thankful to be alive of course, and im always grateful when people acknowledge my birthday. but deep down inside, there is this tiny part of secret dreading. which i guess i know the reason why. but let this reason be a secret that only the birthday girl knows.

~ blogging takes my mind off things too.. ~

Crème de la Crème #9

2011-08-26T04:34:00.000-07:00

Cat deeley in this elegant white frock. the dress is unnamed but she just look so good in it. some individuals look far better in white than the others do, and it's not just the complexion that plays a role in it but the whole vibe of a person. i've seen some rather fair women who looks ordinary and uniformed in white, it's as if nothing stands out and the dress/shirt might as well be viewed on a hanger. and looked better! imho, women with yellowish fair to dark skin-tones should steer clear from off-white dresses, unless it's a top or a shirt and you could pair it up with colors or black. but just not pure white for top and bottom unless "bland " is the word that you're aiming for! everyone can wear white, but not all actually looks good in it, as opposed to black, which everyone can wear and almost everyone looks good in black. i think that white actually complements cat deeley. im just not sure about the shoes tho. a pair of satin heel pumps in any color would had done the dress a better justice.

Mrs. Beckham in victoria beckham shift dress. a true fashion icon. i think she finally found her true calling, being a fashion designer (apart from being a footballer's wife). not by being in spice girls ( even though she had always been my fav spice girls at one time when spice girl and all these girl power hoo-haa was the craze and even tho being in spice girls was what made here famous in the first place), nor having a solo career, an actress nor a model. nothing too avantgarde, just classy and designed with a woman's silhouette in mind. i like how this shift dress is relaxed enough yet doesn't completely hide her curves despite her skinny frame. to be sexy sometimes you don't have to wear everything tight. i also like how she pairs her green frock with nude heels. Vb always steps out in heels. recently been seen wearing flats, reports has surfaced that she has been advised to stop wearing heels due to her slipped disc and back aches. but as a matter of fact, wearing heels in the long term can have detrimental effects on a woman's back and calf muscles. so balance is key. ;)

Clemence poesy in louis vuitton shirt. this ensemble may not be over the top. but i just like this example of how simple key pieces can bring you from anywhere in the day to a movie premier.

Leighton Meester in Vera Wang top, and brian atwood heels. i like how she pairs softness and edginess in her flowy top and black shiny pants. the heels seem a bit too small for her tho.

Frida Pinto in marchesa dress and feragammo pumps. animal prints are back in again for fall 11, so are feminine tones like fuchsia, purple and burgundy. im okay with leopard prints as long as it's not overload.

le ruban blanc

2011-08-20T07:30:00.000-07:00

just two days ago, someone told me this story, something that she heard from the radio, which i made me feel like posting it up here. it goes as something like this;

Do you know that one of the most googled sentence in google is actually 'how to forget someone'. and all around the world, in each passing day, there are people out there trying to forget about other people and would search at every nook and cranny for the remedy to miraculously blank out a certain past or someone in their lives. hence one of the most googled sentence 'how to forget someone'. as we all know that google would most often continue the sentence for us before it being fully typed out. but here's the thing, when you actually start typing 'how to forg...' another sentence would then appear ' how to forgive yourself' instead of 'how to forget someone'. perhaps the notion behind this story is that, as common as it may sound 'forgetting someone' is usually near to impossible unless you gotten yourself a head trauma and lost your memory. not to mention the execution of effort to forget someone on purpose also denote the impossibility of not 'remembering', as that person must have been a rather significant someone in your life for you to want to consciously 'unremember' him or her. hence it is better to 'forgive yourself' than to 'forget someone'. or that there are far more people that are interested in 'forgiving yourself' than 'forgetting someone'. :)

so being somewhat curious, i actually attempted to type 'how to forg..' and the first sentence that comes out is..... it's still 'how to forget someone' and 'how to forgive yourself' only comes after 'how to forgive... *a dozen other people*'.

putting the validity of this story aside, i wonder at how much truth or reason there is in this 'forgetting and forgiving story'. whether is there a link between the former and the latter.

i guess that if it was posed as a random question, some might even deny it upfront while secretly having been googled it up in the past in front of their computers when no one is around, when they are truly alone. while the slight embarrassment crept up as you consciously type the letters on how to forget...
as embarrassing as it may be to some people, it certainly takes some form of courage to actually google up these words on how to forget someone. however silly or unnecessary it may be in reality, the sense of the urgency felt at that time won over any after thoughts that may have occurred at a later time. but back to the rationality of this simple story, so whats the link? why do i have to learn to forgive myself if i ever felt the need to forget someone? i wonder..

of course the most ideal outcome would be to forget about someone in a blink of an eye.. be it an estranged lover or someone that had done you a great deal of harm.. vice versa, it could be anything at all. i think that the most crucial thing here does not lie in whether or not we remember someone but rather on how we feel about them as time goes by. it's not just about the significant people in our lives, we would always remember the insignificant people or event in our lives purely due to memory. but it doesn't bother us, does it?

perhaps this is a rather subjective topic, rather modified by individual's mind suited to serve only in certain occasions. perhaps this short random story does ring true on some individuals, that it is better to forgive yourself than to forget about someone. however they may want to see it. or perhaps it is to forgive yourself for the fact that you are never gonna forget about that certain someone, hence save up the googling. i don't have a strong opinion on this one. all i see is just something rather random. a random "food for thought" that may not be relevant in our daily lives. as it encourages us to pick the latter when faced with the former.

#709

2011-07-11T09:08:00.000-07:00

#Epic Goverment fail + #Epic Polis Diraja fail

= #Epic Lie Fail.

Growing up.. i had not been very politically inclined unfortunately so it's best for me to keep it short and sweet as everyone has an opinion and i guess that we could all pretty much already gauge what the rakyat would say (yellow or any other colors for that matter), what BN would say, and what the opposition leaders would say for this whole situation ( based on what everyone is/ has already been saying in this matter)

I am not taking any sides politically ( like i've mention, perhaps im just not that politically familiar to take sides... yet) and in my very humble opinion, every party may (or may not) have their own agendas.

But i am definitely 'for voting' and for a fair and clean voting system.
as we all know 'every vote counts'..
once the elections are fair and Bersih of course. XD

Crème de la Crème #8

2011-06-26T03:03:00.001-07:00

Sexy Megan Fox in Azzedine Alaia. I lurve everything about this dress, from the color to the cutting. there's something about this dress which is demure yet sexy.

Kate Bosworth in Richard Nicoll. and a simple Chloe sandal. love the diamante straps. (too small to see in pic)Growing up, i had always prefer colors like black or white instead of pink, to appear more grown up. being a young adult, i am embracing pink instead, and lurve how different shades of pink could do wonders for all skin-tones.

Portia De Rossi in Victoria Beckham. simple classic one- piece like this one is my all-time favourite, as these are of a heavier material, rather than cheap stretchable polyester. it's figure flattering cutting would almost flatter anyone with a waistline. which could be rather tricky, because the cutting of the dress itself needs to be perfectly seamless and without any minor flaws as a tiny stitching flaw could result in small bulges in the silhouette. Hence you could observe that only the pricier labels makes such dresses. Pricy.. but timeless.

Blake Lively in Matthew Wiliamson. Kudos for Blake Lively for almost always being able to camouflage her pear-shaped bod with clothes. or rather Kudos to her stylist. As seen here with a looser embellished top (lurve the sequins) with a tight leather mini. For her young age, she obviously doesnt need breast-implants, but now i can see the reason why she does it. to balance out her body and drives away attention from her wide hips.

Petite Eva in an ivory Victoria Beckham. again, one of my fave pieces.

For You

2011-06-02T12:23:00.001-07:00

I've been procrastinating.. but here they are.. it's nearly a century old. okay, so some month's old pics aren't exactly ancient but compared to mine.. most people prolly load their pics the morning after. so my cousin has been complaining. yea.. mmkay.. i get it.

speaking of my edgy cousin yang cantek, this is her..

this is denise. freshly (or not so fresh) squeezed from new zealand. high-protein, full- cream.

and this is krys. xD

at itallianies @ the gardens.

bored.. so we decided to 'cam-whore'.
like I've said.. i don't cam. whore. so am afraid there isn't much whoring in most of the pics.

"whoring"(cam) ..

attempt to "whore" (cam) fail. . they say, if at first you don't succeed.. try.. try again.. lol!

could you tell if she was pretending to look elsewhere while taking pic or was she really looking out the window? a skilled 'cam-whorer'.....
i can't remember actually. -.-''
lame ques. ya, i know rite. -___-

waiting..

waiting..

still waiting..

still..

So this is my dear younger sis. oh how we love exchanging gifts and birthday prezzies cos i only see her during her hols each year. lurve spending time with her. she's just amazing

Finally ^^ ( imo, this is the only dish that taste good in Itallianies. funny how some restaurants just turn mediocre once they get a bit famous. they used to taste much better back then.)

p.s : i hope 'you' like it.

Crème de la Crème #7

2011-05-19T12:42:00.000-07:00

Angelina Jolie in sequined Emporio Armani. This tube dress speaks true Angelina style. Sequins never goes out of style. Be it 1990 or 2020. seriously.

Kylie Minouge in David Koma. Love the structured front. Pairing Leopard print heels with the white dress gives the whole outfit an 'unrestrained wilderness' as opposed to a clean and structured look.

Charlize Theron mix and match with Dior pants. Love the pairing of nude boots with grey trousers, pairing it with any other colors might have given it a corporate look instead. This proves that androgynous could be sexy. *if you have a gorgeous face*.

Alexis Biedel in Stella Mccartney silk floral frock. Love the picture-esque flower prints, tho for some reasons i find this frock much more suitable for caucasian women than asians. Asians, especially chinese would look very ah lian in it due to the way this dress is. Everything in it. Clearly Miss Stella didn't have an asian in mind while designing this lovely dress.

Jennifer Aniston in tweed Dolce & Gabbana. This brings back the retro chic feel. Not for every occasion as a full tweed dress looks ultra classy in the correct event, say Luncheon, high-tea or public social event. but a big no-no in nightclubs, movie dates or "pasar malam".

zouking with the wonderful people

2011-04-04T03:46:00.000-07:00

Went to Zouk with both of my lovely cousins a couple of weeks ago.. if im not mistaken. it was darn crowded. which is a good thing cos nobody would wanna go to a half empty club. but ironically, the crowd is the last thing that i like being in a club. cos u get toe- stepped *regardless of how drunk or sober you are* and your shoes will be nearly ruined by the end of the night. here are the pictures. anyways, some of the photos here aren't exactly picture perfect, but i'll just post up watever i've been tagged.
because the most important thing here is we had fun :)
luckily these aren't taken by my camera cos by the time i post it, it would be near ancient. speaking of pictures, i have yet to post pictures from my cam, which they are still considered as quite new. cos few months old pictures are still new. right?

this is my uber talented and hawt cousin. her name is u-mae. unfortunately for guys out there, she isn't available. ;P

so this is what i'm talking about. i must have been dreaming. and i notice i do indeed.. look like a fish. from the side. and sometimes from the front view. *a goldfish perhaps.. or some other aquatic being. maybe a dori fish. no.. more like a goldfish* . it's okay, im not hurt or anything.. LOL. i like being compared to a fish. yea, weird.. i know. it's not because i have a fish fetish or anything. i just got used to these comments since i was young. and so i got used to this notion.

Btw, i need to make an announcement here.. ladies and gentlemen.. meet zlwin chew, my dear friend. Zouk's magician and mentalist. super talented. can bend spoons and stuff.

i do not know why females take pictures at the toilet. prolly because of the mirror.

one too many long island. was this barsonic or..... nevermind. -.-

me and my gorgeous and brilliant cousin who just came back from new zealand.

i think.. we look similar in a 'sorta- kinda' way..

till then.. xoxo

Hit It!

2011-03-08T08:28:00.000-08:00

I see you drivin round town with the guy I love
And I'm like, forget you
I guess the change in my pocket Wasn't enough
I'm like, forget you

Yeah I'm sorry, I can't afford a Ferrari,
But that don't mean I can't get you there
I guess she's an Xbox and I'm more an Atari,
Mmm, but the way you play your game ain't fair

I pity the fool that falls in love with you
(Ooo, she's a gold digger)
Well
(Just thought you should know nig**)
Ooooooh
I've got some news for you
Yeah, go run and tell your little girlfriend

I see you drivin round town with the guy I love
And I'm like, forget you
I guess the change in my pocket wasn't enough
I'm like, forget you and forget him too

Said, if I was richer, I'd still be with ya
Now ain't that some sh.. (Ain't that some sh..)
And although there's pain in my chest
I still wish you the best with a
Forget you ~~

I was never a big fan of Glee. so im not an avid audience. A bit tad high-school-ish for me. and Simply because Lea Michele has the most annoying voice. ever.
but if Gwyneth Paltrow is a guest artist.. and so this is good performance. the best that ever came out from Glee. way better than the original version. imho.

This is Holly Holliday. her voice and her moves speaks for itself.

A better son/daughter

2011-02-27T10:01:00.000-08:00

i guess i can relate to this..

~Sometimes in the morning i am petrified and can't move
Awake but cannot open my eyes
And the weight is crushing down on my lungs i know i can't breath
And hope someone will help me this time
Your mother's still calling you insane and high
Swearing it's different this time
And you tell her to give in to the demons that possess her
And that god never blessed her insides
Then you hang up the phone and feel badly for upsetting things
And crawl back into bed to dream of a time
When your heart was open wide and you loved things just because
Like the sick and the dying

And sometimes when you're on you're really fucking on
And your friends they sing along and they love you
But the lows are so extreme that the good seems fucking cheap
And it teases you for weeks in its absence
But you'll fight and you'll make it through
You'll fake it if you have to
And you'll show up for work with a smile
And you'll be be better you'll be smarter
More grown up and a better daughter
Or son and a real good friend
And you'll be awake and you'll be alert
You'll be positive though it hurts
And you'll laugh and embrace all your friends
And you'll be a real good listener
You'll be honest you'll be brave
You'll be handsome you'll be beautiful
You'll be happy

Your ship may be coming in
You're weak but not giving in
To the cries and the wails of the valley below
Your ship may be coming in
You're weak but not giving in
And you'll fight it you'll go out fighting all of them...

-A good pick me up from Rilo Kiley- Something we could all relate to sometimes

Across the Universe

2011-02-06T08:18:00.000-08:00

lollipops turn into cigarettes. the innocent ones turns into sluts. homework goes in the trash. mobile phones are being used in class. detention becomes suspension. soda becomes vodka. bikes become cars. kisses turn into sex. remember when getting high means swinging on the playground? when protection meant wearing a helmet? when the worst things you could get from boys were cooties? dad"s shoulder's were the highest place on earth and mom was your hero? your worst enemies were your siblings. race issues were about who ran the fastest. war was only a card game. and the only drug you knew was cough medicine. when wearing a skirt didn't make you a slut. the most pain you felt was when you skinned your knees, and goodbyes only meant until tomorrow? and we couldn't wait to grow up.

- via batteredandbruised.

and so i remembered there was a time when i was still a kid, about 9 or 10. i really couldn't wait to grow up. sometimes i would look into the mirror, wondering how tall would i grow up to be. turns out that i was an inch taller than i imagined. and i always wonder at what type of young lady (lol) that i would grow up to be.. i would look at the older jie jie's around me, some would pair everything mini skirts, some are a specky nerdy- bunch, while some lives in flared jeans and t-shirt, and some of them tried to look cool with big tees and sweatpants (which i thought was really cool, at that age) but it was always a lot of denim mini skirts. not so much of denim shorts. at least that's what the teens around me was wearing. so i would always wonder.. would that be me when i grow up? or would i wear big t-shirts around and be really cool too? i was always wearing my mickey mouse and winnie the pooh t-shirts. i thought i was too old for dresses. and i didnt really look as good in denim minis as those older girls. so i put the cotton ones away. till im 16, i thought.. i will wear the same skirt, and i will look as good as them. and then everyone starts baring their midriff with short tank tops or low waist-ed flared jeans. and i was a few years older by then, so i tried baring mine one day, two days, and then i went back to my Pikachu t shirt. up till today i don't own a denim mini. only the cotton ones.
i prefer the 40's look. dresses with well defined waist and an 'hour-glass' silhouette. i guess i would make a slightly better oriental pin up girl than some tummy baring britney-wannabes.

The metal rabbit

2011-02-01T09:59:00.000-08:00

I have a feeling that im not going to like year 2011 very much. strangely, I've stopped enjoying Chinese new year somewhere ever since the past few years. it wasn't torture, but it's like i couldn't wait for the whole thing to end. and i wouldn't know the reasons either, if someone were to ask me why.

maybe it's because i know it's not going to be all rainbows like the promise of every new year. i guess it's what most people do. painting pretty pictures at the beginning of every year, each one more beautiful than the previous.
i may be wrong.
so what if there's going to be plenty? you can't do much with rainbows, can you?

~He gave me that night back and this time, I told you the truth. We talked and held each other till the sun came up. And as I went to hell, the devil asked me if it was worth it. I said yes. Yes it was. ~

Nix the Blues

2011-01-25T08:39:00.000-08:00

Blue cupcakes always makes my day.

as if things were this simple.

i wish it was that simple.

i wish I was this simple.

a blue cupcake a day, keeps the blues away.

~ if only you are a blue cupcake.. ~

Pause and Rewind

2011-01-24T08:48:00.000-08:00

You asked me how. i said i don't know either. sometimes we just have to believe that the good is going to come. you told me you are tired. so i told you that believing should be like breathing. it takes no effort.

~ in rare moments i forget to breath, for a split second every flicker of thoughts paused too. i'd rather have a rewind.. ~

The Space Within

2011-01-23T05:23:00.000-08:00

There is nothing scary about choices. Scary is when you don't have a choice. sometimes when we think we aren't left with any. truth is, there are always choices.

My strange little world go passing me by

2011-01-21T20:43:00.000-08:00

my blog was dead.. halfway revived now. probably because i've nothing interesting nor mundane to blog about for the past many weeks. or perhaps i'm experiencing what you might call a writer's block.. but im not much of a writer. perhaps i've just been darn lazy * i still have loads of pics that i hadn't upload yet, which i would, soon* or maybe i've just prefer to store everything at the back of my mind these days without jotting it down in writing.

i've kinda realize that one shouldn't post a blog on emotions before the blog dies off. if the previous post was somewhat dark and somber, whoever who read it might conclude things must had been so bitter and forlorn for her that she dies off slowly together with her blog. a slow and painful death.

or if it was ever a post so sparkling, cheery and upbeat. they might have thought.. look how elated she is. she must probably still be locked up in a deliriously rosy state that she decided to abandon her blog all together. and lived a happily ever after life somewhere.

but then again, whether you decided to leave your blog out to die in the cold hard ground or the warm summer solstice, it makes no difference.

a happy death is still a death.

*in the case of blogs, they can be dead and revived a zillion amount of times, depending on mood*

Crème de la Crème 6#

2010-12-09T04:22:00.000-08:00

Diane Kruger's outfit is casual yet stylish in a very British kinda way. but yet very few figures can pull it off.

Carey Mulligan in Roland Mouret. i like the silhouette of the dress. i like how formal it looks.

Heidi Klum in Roland Mouret again :D. Love the color and the stripes. and the way the dress falls off-shoulder.

Miss Katy Perry in Zuhair Murad> She said she is a smurfette. Check out the the patch for the armpit. with crystals too.

Check out the crystals =D.

Front view. this amazing dress will only look amazing in blue hair and bright yellow nail. someone with real life hair would spoils the magic in this dress. it means, you can only wear this when you are a smurfette.

i don't mind wearing a blue wig and donning bright yellow nails. but im not sure if i will ever wear something like this tho.

Emmy Rossum in a beaded Marchesa gown. i really like the dress. or is it her body that i like actually XD.

The World Is Better Backwards

2010-11-27T09:21:00.000-08:00

i guess tonight Iracebeth is going to cry herself to sleep.. tomorrow she's gonna feel better. and she is gonna tell me all about it. she wouldn't tell the world.. just to me. * hush*

~ all the immediate unknowns are better than knowing this tired and lonely fate..~

Super Mary

2010-10-28T03:38:00.000-07:00

~有只叫玛丽玛丽玛丽的蚂蚁
爱上马路对面的查理
可惜查理查理查理是只猫
天天在想河里的鱼
只是一条马路的距离
可怜玛丽走不过去
眺望着查理缩在谁怀里吃鱼

马路上每一辆车各奔东西
每一个人匆匆走到哪里
有没有目的要不要目的
就像蚂蚁玛丽

有天玛丽玛丽玛丽有点急

看见查理又搬来新邻居

名叫茉莉茉莉茉莉多好听
都让查理忘了吃鱼

原来一条马路的距离
有时真的走不过去

可一旦走过去查理还美不美丽

马路上的日升又日落人来又人往

玛丽抬起头才发现到处都是风景
日升又日落人来又人往玛丽偶尔抬起头

才发现用心欣赏到处都能看到好风景

原来一条马路的距离

有时候真的走不过去
可一旦走过去
眼中的查理还美不美丽

玛丽玛丽玛丽狠开心

沿着马路继续走下去
遇上的哈利安迪波比都有趣
也让自己变得狠有趣

其实一条马路的距离
有时真的不用过去

再美的风景看在眼里

也可以好好放进心里

日升又日落人来又人往

玛丽偶尔抬起头看看自己

在别人的眼里自己

自己也许也是风景

其实一条马路的距离
有时真的不用过去

再美的风景总会离开眼睛 ~~

Deep Copper Blond

2010-10-24T06:48:00.000-07:00

It has been kinda a month ever since the last update. and i cut + dyed + highlight my hair at The Gardens. im actually quite particular about color, especially dyed hair colors. so i had always prefer to choose the colors myself rather than recommended by the stylists. :)
so these are the round up of September. these are a few random pics out of the bunch taken. been hanging out wit a nice friend chee mun last mth coz he will be heading to the UK this coming year. nice. :D

at Phuture with 2 lovely ladies and a gentleman. Vivian, Gabriella and Chee Mun.

young and sweet Talisa.

yin mun. :)

a 'non- housewarming party' by ari and riku. * i couldn't recall what was i looking at*.

and the night was still young.. and i have to add somethin, the dude in pink shirt named chi khan called shots of pure whiskey a 'Pussy-drink'. i wonder what a 'non- Pussy drink' is like.. hmm.

randomly taking pictures when the night 'was' still young. lol.

for some reasons, i thought i reminded myself of a vine in this picture.

me, with riku at the back. ;P

two finnish dudes at Delicious, Bangsar Village. ;)

pre- birthday celebration?? i was actually sick the night before my 23rd birthday, i never ordered anything but hot honey lemon and mushroom soup, hence no pictures of lavish food. its not a good omen for the chinese getting sick on their birthday nite. :S "pak mou kam kei, shen ti qian kang, xin xiang shi chen, wan shi ru yi" LOLL> okay i feel much better now. im not a superstitious being, im js being traditional when it comes to certain things *contrary to what some people might think, i am actually very much a traditional when it comes to being a chinese.*

i still havent gotten my ipod yet, reason being, i cant decide on which color to choose, blue or orange? so whats for october u asked.. nothing much, just pretty much chilling and studying, minus the pictures. :p

Crème de la Crème #5

2010-09-30T10:34:00.000-07:00

Nicole Richie wearing her own line, Kate Winter. I lurve how samurai-ish she looks without looking too odd or looking like she is taking part in a cos-play. check out those python Louboutins. lurve it.

i lurve Eva's hair. i like how she matched her body fitting dress wit a cardi. it balanced off the look without being overtly formal.

Lindsay Price in a dark violet number. i just like it. any 'body' would look good in such flattering and camouflaging cuts.

Katy Perry in Zuhair Murad. she looks like a teenage prom queen dream in this soft pink dress. i like the bow and the roses on the skirt. im not sure if i mentioned it before, but i have always loved her style. a huge lot.

Chloe Sevigny in Proenza Shouler. i love how she pair her preppy dress with black tights and black booties. at a further glance, the floor actually matches her dress, too.

~ some new pics of me the next post..! ~~

The Autumn that reminds of Fallen Ashes

2010-09-15T11:47:00.000-07:00

for reasons unknown..honestly, i've always disliked September and the best day in that month would be my birthday, and thats it.. nothing more and nothing less..

yes, i desire something.. and yet i fear.. hence the frostbite..

but let's go to a place where there is winter .. i'm tired of all the autumn leaves.

~ i was always the girl who was better to the ones that was worse for me, and worse to the ones that was better for me.. ~

Crème de la Crème #4

2010-09-04T09:10:00.000-07:00

Naomi Watts in RM by Roland Mouret. This age-appropriate dress would look great in women pass their mid 20's without looking granny-ish due to the soft lilac color and fabric. (I've always loved Roland Mouret, i think his designs are simple, yet classy and timeless.

Burlesque superstar Dita Von Teese shows us you can wear different shades of red head-to-toe, yet show your cleavage without looking cheap and trashy.

I like how Nicole Kidman looks all the more porcelain with a satin gown almost her skin color. It makes her looks like a sculpture.

Fergie's edgy chic rock gets toned down in this dreamy- hued blue. I really lurve the color. I do not know what is the actual name of this color, but i will call it.. the 'dream-fairy blue'. ;D

Nicole Richie in L'wren Scott and Christian Louboutin pumps. (If only the details of this dress could be magnified in picture..) Very sexy, but understated.

Reasons why i don't watch America's next Top Model

2010-08-25T09:04:00.000-07:00

im try not to be biased, as i am not a super -fan of Laura Kirkpatrick, neither am i the president of the hateclub of Nicole Fox.

The moment i saw Laura Kirkpatrick.. i thought to myself.. " damn! this girl is the best of the lot.. and has got memorable 'It' features. *lips, nose and cheekbones*
Laura

* photographs superbly well.
*best runway walk as she appeared very 'seasoned' in runways despite having no experience at all. (the judges said it)
*has dyslexia but requires less takes than Nicole (which i will go to her in the later part) in Covergirl cosmetics script. performed better than Nicole.
* a mix of sensuality and innocence.

she looks like a Grecian goddess in this photo.

Next up, Nicole Fox. Picture speaks for itself, but for additional information.. Jay Manuel commented that her voiced sounded like a snob living a pampered lifestyle inside her Covergirl advert (whiny paris-hilton like but amazingly Tyra said she loved nocole's voice). she struts the runway with this weird style of each sides of shoulders moving back and forth as she walks.. *and Tyra concluded is as a "signature" walk. pfft*

Yes, surely she had a few good pics. but what about the very unproportionate body,overtly long neck and looking malnourished. and what's up with those ears? im sorry, but if you are a model and a winner as well, arent you not supposed to have prominent flappy ears? i know models are supposed to look really skinny but not malnourished. High fashion is supposed to look fierce. not half-dead.

Basically, the judges has noted more strengths in laura than nicole as laura's southern appeal could transform into a mix of sensuality, sweetness and innocence while she struts the runway with subtle fierceness and sex appeal *the judges said it*.
while nicole appears less charismatic, albeit being able to strike a pose or two (duh.. u are one of the top 2 left, striking poses no longer serves as an advantage but a nesesity) despite a lack-lustre presense in real life and walking like a gargoyle in the runway. both girls are shorter than the average model height as season 13 (some time ago) was for aspiring models 5 ft 7 and under.

as predicted, miss tyra here had managed to always throw in more questions to the other judges on who is better, to make it sound more favourable to Nicole Fox. Having been watching antm for the past few seasons, the moment that i heard Nigel Barker (noted fashion photographer) complements and whistling on how sexy Laura looked in her Covergirl photoshoots. I knew it.. damn.. what a shame! with tyra banks as the chief judge, no way will she ever let laura win after such remarks are made. Hah! turns out i was right. spot on.

me as a faraway observer had long ago suspected that tyra has some insecurity issues going on, just by looking at the pattern of the antm winner. Somehow after season 4 or 5 the winners are always mediocre at best, and the ones with real model potentials somehow always got eliminated. none of the winners made it big, but yet a handful of the one's that were sec or third runner-ups were signed on to modelling agencies nonetheless and might hav more bookings than those picked out by tyra. (anyone who follows the show would know what im talking about). if even i could observe such issues *from a faraway land in front of a tv screen* no doubt people around Tyra Banks or people who works in the same industry would have noticed it even more clearer still. i know that the biological clock is ticking and being a former supermodel does has its issues, but there is no reasons to stoop that low or even feel intimidated by anyone younger that is trying to make it in the fashion industry, albeit secretly. Im sorry Tyra, i had always liked you, but sometimes your choices are just so darn obvious. never in a million years will she choose sexy newcomer.

the show could be kinda entertaining, but most of the contestant sucks. big time. and i do know what im talking about, and i know what i see, i may not be working in the modelling industry but real successful models does not, in anyway looks like Nicole Fox, or even close. Speaking of which, just so anyone who reads this knows, that i do not aspire to be a model of any sort, therefore im not making these critics as an ego-boost to myself) and i do believe that tyra, being in the modelling industry for so long knows what she sees, but yet the contradicting results. thus, imho, this whole antm show looks more like a joke to me. hence i stop watching it ever since. if anyone were to beg to differ, im sorry but i guess you just dunno much about fashion and looks and stuff. (not saying that i do, but it's darn obvious that you don't.. lol)

and so at the end of cycle 13 antm, Nicole was, of course chosen as the winner.

a picture says a thousand words. :)

Katy who??

2010-08-14T04:55:00.000-07:00

*Quirky hairstyle Katy*

its amazing how celebrities has the power of influence over some people out there. despite them being mere beings themselves.. *only much more richer, influential and famous (duh)*. where people actually aspires to be them (fans), or want to be them (posers. yikes!!) or perhaps wanting to own (some of it) the things they own (me). long conversation short talk (kindly translate to chinese, yes i am an ah lian.)
story goes like this.. A famous female artist by the name of Katy Perry had opened up a FB account, among many other Katy Perrys. yes, there are many Katy Perrys in this world, unfortunately. and soon she has more than 9000 idiots... no. sorry.. i meant 'friends' in her account, naturally..
and she rants on and on about how she is the real Katy, and fake Katys are everywhere in Facebook. hence deleting the rest and adding her would be a proper thing to do (if you are a true Katy- Kat).

Miss Katy took offence in anyone who states she isn't THE authentic Katy. so days ago.. me :D , just for the fun of it.. sent her a FB message (yes, i admit, i was being free doing nothing productive and a sampah after my exams, for that short period of time).

krystal : oh gee.. u are so fake! LOL
naturally..the next day the ever so busy miss Katy took some time out and replied her 'fan'. and to straigthen out the offensive. of course.

Katy Perry : Unless you have proof, i assume you also despise people who insult you, don't ask for trouble!

on the same day, miss katy's (or Mr. katy) account dissapeared from the face of facebook altogether. i thought the "friends" must be terribly dissapointed, wondering why.. pity. :(

why are you so pathetic? tsk tsk..
better luck posing next time. LOL

Vajazzle **

2010-07-27T10:20:00.000-07:00

Currently single Jennifer Love talks about the empowerment that comes from vajazzling.
hence every single ladies should vajazzle their lady loves. Now tell me, who on earth wouldn't love Jennifer Love.. single or not single (btw, love love love her pink dress).
Although astoundingly, Love revealed that she's been cheated on numerous times throughout her pass relationship(s). and to think that usually it's the fugly girls that are being cheated on would have been a bit too hasty a judgment.

reality check: some guys do cheat on their smart and attractive galfren for some irrelevant substandard plain-looking gals. reasons could be aplenty but often invalid.

Okay, back to this.. i think someday i should do some vajazzling too, maybe. xD

Oh.. really?

2010-07-17T06:24:00.001-07:00

No Penny, if you ever get lonely, you are bound to meet people, when you meet people, you are bound to have fun, and when you have fun, you are bound to get hurt.
if you keep telling yourself to not take things seriously, denial will creep in.
and you are going to feel empty nevertheless..
the cycle would take in again.
and visiting the record stores and your friends wouldn't do wonders to you.
girls can be contradictorily stupid. some of them at least.
why all the unnecessary loneliness and compliance? I would say, find people who would take you seriously then.

Crème de la Crème #3

2010-07-17T05:21:00.001-07:00

Gorgeous Kate Beckinsale in Derek Lam draped dress. Two things i will always like. Draped dresses and classic fitted Victoria Beckham dresses like the one below

Kate Hudson in Armani Prive. Heard she got her boobs done recently, which i don't think it's necessary. Small breasts could be beautiful too. lol.

I actually like her ribbon hairpiece very much. and her pink pointed heels, am not sure whether pointed heels are still in season tho.

I really like Chloe Sevigny's polka dot gown. Polka dots are sheer classics.

Blake Lively in Victoria Beckham. am still not a fan of Gossip Girl. but this is my favourite. I want a dress like this, with the exact same color. (preferably the exact same brand)

Could we pretend that..

2010-07-10T08:40:00.000-07:00

~ I think i could really use a wish right now... ~

Frostbitten

2010-07-08T12:03:00.000-07:00

i dreamed that i had ice inside my mouth.. so basically i was eating ice. more like cold crushed ice. it tasted like ice that came from a rusty freezer, it tasted awful. but i kept eating it. for some unknown reasons i could n't stop. i thought it maybe might taste better if i kept eating more. taste was gone when i awoke, ice was no longer inside my mouth. went back to sleep and there i was, eating crushed ice again. and the awful taste reappeared again. no, not a heart shaped ice cube.
the last i checked, it says both freezer and ice symbolizes cold feelings and frigid emotions ( am not sure whether it is true tho). perhaps i am being too frigid. if that is true, then i would have cold rusty old feelings towards a certain part of my life. well, nothing is too old if you are only 23 in the coming 2 months.
i think it symbolize the need to freeze my emotions now, and save it for the later part of my life instead.

~ and so i heard the crushed rusty ice was once a whole heart shaped ice... i may not have liked the taste..but how it felt inside my mouth was a perfectly different story.. ~~

Crème de la Crème #2

2010-06-28T11:38:00.000-07:00

I've always had a penchant for long flowy sunshine yellow dress. Jennifer Love looks good in anything of course.

I like how Megan Foxxy combined her leather jacket with a flowy patterned top. biker slash femininity appeal.

Scar Jo in green laced Dolce & Gabbana. I absolutely lurve lace especially the colored ones. This dress is so perfect that she absolutely needs no accessories.

Sexy miss Kitty Purry in a rubber dress. she makes rubber dress looks so wearable. she is my favourite style icon. miss Kitty could never go wrong with anything. what she wears turns to gold.

Blake Lively (not much of a fan of her's tho) in an aquamarine romper. i like how this romper accentuates her body and actually hides her broad hips. rompers are a must this summer.

être heureux

2010-06-23T10:04:00.000-07:00

sometimes, it is amazing how people don't often realize that the world does not revolves around them. often having the need to have their thoughts heard, wanting to make a mark at this world, as if an extra opinion from you matters, as if the world is awaiting your debut. your likes and dislikes matters too. hence blogs exists. yes, sometimes i feel the need too, hence my blog exists.

and sometimes this thought affects people in a not so nice way, from the extend of worrying what the others might think of you.. to whether people like you enough, do they think of you in a certain way? or to the big question like 'ARE YOU GOOD ENOUGH?' or to little things like wondering why are people looking at you when you are merely out for a walk. was it your hair? or your midriff? or perhaps just the sum of your physical presence? face problem perhaps? okay, perhaps this is a bit exaggerated. but i bet everyone's thought do wonder when it comes to self-consciousness. well again, yea... i used to feel that way sometimes.. but it's not so much about competitions with the same sexes, or some feminist view of battling with the sexes (which i guess that's just the way humans are wired to be).
sadly, people judge.. it's true.. but doesn't everyone..
for me, it's about how comfortable you are as being your own person. competitions are healthy, but true competition lies in competing with yourself, not the rest of the world. i place a strong importance of being at ease with ourselves both emotionally and physically. it sounds effortless, but actually.. it's not as easy as it sounds. hence words like defense mechanism exist. so as to not upset the balance of both aspects.

therefore i think the keyword would be 'Temperance'.

Crème de la Crème #1

2010-06-08T08:19:00.001-07:00

Chloe Sevigny in Kimberly Ovitz. Luv her minimalistic approach.

Nicky Hilton in striped dress, cropped blazer and a Chanel necklace. Stripes are a comeback this season.

Leighton Meester in Nina Ricci. Shoes from Derek Lam. (She could have worn the gladiators in the light neutral shade which they have instead, to bring out a more softer contrast to her pale yellow ruffles, imho.)

Nicole Richie wearing a long-sleeved sequin dress by her own clothing line named under her daughter's middle name Winter Kate. Fashionista genius!

From now onwards I would pick out fashions worn by celebs every now and then if i happen to like them (the celebs or the designs) very much. js for the fun of it. :)

The Convenience In Us

2010-05-26T08:59:00.000-07:00

for the every little moments like paperclip of memories..

~ And so, I wait because you have already left and my work here, is done. I wait and wonder how my skin feels like it’s made of love letters written a hundred years too soon (too late). I wonder at the mystery of life and how much of it can possibly remain. I wonder at pain and hurt and love and time and how much of each I held. I wonder at how I cannot remember anything in my life before I met you. I wonder at the tiniest of touches and try, desperately, to keep their memories alive. I wonder at loneliness. I wonder at how long it’ll be, before I see you again. I wait. And I wonder. ~

links from please find this.

like seriously..

2010-05-17T08:36:00.000-07:00

~I think that the power is the principle. The principle of moving forward, as though you have the confidence to move forward, eventually gives you confidence when you look back and see what you've done. ~ Robert Downey, Jr

I....

think...

I...

could..

just...

melt....

because i had always thought he looks effortlessly handsome and *blush** virile. since like.. a decade ago.. ( i was twelve then.) btw i think that everyone on earth should watch Ironman or anything that has Ironman in it, even cameo appearances. ;p

he is so smokin' hot. period. ( pardon the pun here.)

perfection will not come

2010-05-09T05:47:00.000-07:00

how far would you go to keep your secrets safe? or is this an open secret where people retains the thoughts and perceptions still.

~ and we all bleed sometimes.. but how often do you bleed? ~

Met Costume Gala 2010

2010-05-04T08:54:00.000-07:00

Amber Valletta in RM by the ever so talented up and coming designer Roland Mouret. (2010 will set a mark for more of his creations.)

Model Chanel Iman in Michael Kors. (Hav you ever seen a jumpsuit as glam as this? no. period.)

Zac Posen and Model Doutzen Kroes. (she really looks like a fairy princess in this dreamy-hued gown.)

Nicole Richie in Marc Jacobs. (i have always thought she looks very chic whatever she wears, wherever she goes.)

J. Lo in Zuhair Murad. ( this glamourous gown spells O-S-C-A-R red carpet.)

Chloe Sevigny in Proenza Schouler. (fell in love with the bare back and the turqoise laced fabric. this would be my second pick of the gala.)

Miss Kitty Purry in CuteCircuit. ( the way her dress lits up is just so AMAZING :D .)

Snow white Model Coco Rocha in Zac Posen. (my top pick of best dressed among all.)

few of my fave picks. kudos for great celebs with great style :D . what's your pick?

the month of May

2010-04-24T10:51:00.000-07:00

i should be studying right now.. in fact i am.. but currently i just feel so tired and exhausted and in need of an outlet to vent on my emotions right now.. or rather.. the lack of. today, (or maybe just right now at this very moment) the fire in me just.. vanished. okayy, maybe i am just being really tired.. it's funny how girls tend to dramatize every single thing or thoughts that they feel.. it's like they actually enjoy it! lol. like what LiLO (lindsay you-know-who) said.. "everyone is a drama-queen". i think.. so much so until even when a girl isn't pulling of her dramatic stunts at all (well maybe she was just goin thru some emotional dark- patches, everyone goes thru dark-patches and honestly speaking if you've never gone thru some so called emotional turmoil 1, you must be dead and in heaven. 2, u hadn't gone thru it yet, so the best thing for you to do is to just brace yourself and enjoy the ride mate! 3, you are a retard.), as usual she would be deemed as one due to the mental scheme of people. stereotyping never runs out in both sexes. but like honestly? i think drama-queens could be bimbotically annoying. if you know what i mean.
its not fair. and its never fair. life was never fair come to think of it. it's true and you know it. whoever who is reading knows this, and no i am not whining. seldom do i whine or have the energy to whine these days. or maybe it's because im just tired of pondering about the pieces and slices of me life.
and now i am asking myself..
Am i a drama-queen myself like i thought so a couple of years back?
NOPE, but i certainly very often do find a way to express myself. im just born with an expressive nature, you see.. XD

p.s: i think LL is so preetty.. if only she could just stop partying so hard and be so self-destructive.. which i believe eventually she'll figure out she had enuff.

the lovers of the past

2010-04-08T12:35:00.000-07:00

all the dreams that we had build along the way, only to have it crushed to the ground.. and memories were inked, we'll always have that..

now im burying this deep.. and you should too, once and for all..
im not too sure about you.. but things are waiting for me out there.. better ones indeed.

~ looking back.. we were beautiful..aren't we?.. even tho it hurts for a bit.. ~~

the obsolete

2010-04-01T02:13:00.000-07:00

i realized that i.. and this makes me dislike the fact that i.. never in a million years would i have thought of.. because at first i thought that.. and still felt.. and you seemed.. so i thought.. and i shouldn't have had.. but either way it wouldn't be pretty..

now how more ironic can it get? time indeed changes everything. it changes feelings and it changes perceptions. anyone who knows my story will indeed tell you that it is as ironic that it gets.. that irony could have been my middle name..

but i really do..

~ sometimes.. the more things seem to change.. the more they stay the same.. ~

Vered

2010-03-10T09:06:00.000-08:00

Didi singing "Rhiannon"

Ever since the beginning, i've always thought that ryan seacrest has the hots for this really pretty gal. there is this certain chemistry between them that you can only find between the opposite sexes. maybe? it sure looks obvious enough to me. im thinking that it happened after didi's sweet sweet performance on 'the way i am' by ingrid michealson.
i fell in lurve with her after that sweet performance. i wonder if im the only one who thinks that.. this whole ryan and didi thing. XD

Way to go.. Ryan!!

the realm of a long lost dream

2010-03-08T10:51:00.000-08:00

she is not alice

they are not alice

i am not alice

where do i find alice?

i used to dream of alice many times

alice was running

and the wind blew the card soldiers away

and i woke up

i was alice

i wanted to be her

has she grown up?

i wanna be alice.

The blackout

2010-02-27T08:24:00.000-08:00

~ i felt it.
the wire touch my neck and
then someone pulled it tighter
i never saw it coming
i started to black out and
then someone say good morning
i took it as a warning
i should have seen it coming
So now I'll take a chance on
this thing we may have started.
Intentional or not I
don't think we saw it coming. ~

~ Long Shot ~

The year that awaits

2010-02-02T09:07:00.000-08:00

the year of the tiger is coming very soon.. i enjoyed every bit of last ox's year.. after all.. i was in love with an ox. last year.
i wonder what would the tiger bring to this rabbit. XD this year would be a new beginning. i start anew. taking things as it comes. keeping my feet on the ground but looking far out at the same time. living life with no regrets.

~ a shooting star.. me and you.. such brilliant flames that turns to dust ~

The Contradicting

2010-01-28T10:50:00.000-08:00

humans are complicated in nature.. with so much standards set in today's society.. i guess it's best to just be yourself. and learn from the past in order to avoid making the same mistakes. but what happens if that someone could not accept you for who you are? "just fuck it, cos life's just too short" someone told me.
sometimes after the blur, only do we tend to see things clearly. or perhaps its only when you are screwed that people would come up to you and say "you've just been fucking screwed".
and why was it such a blur before? perhaps those were merely illusions that u gave yourself. and with the help of some booze. illusions became contradictions.
sometimes you would still wonder.. whats the purpose of all the unpleasant things that had happened to you? even though deep down, you know that it's necessary, that it would mold you into the person that you are supposed to be in the present or the future. i had my ups and downs. no doubt i had a changed of perception and thoughts. i've became heartless. my last ex is nothing but a memory to me. given the chance, i am contented with what has happened. i bled. but i healed. i am cynical. but i still believe in the good of people. i still believe in true love that lasts a lifetime or maybe a few. screw them who tells you that love does not last forever. but life is irony. so is love. i Am cynical after all.

BB

2010-01-10T09:38:00.000-08:00

today is the day where i finally gotten my blackberry.. ^^ amongst other good stuff that had happened at this very day. there could be no wrongs in my decision today.

~I like to think that somewhere out there, on a planet exactly like ours, two people exactly like you and me made totally different choices and that, somewhere, we're still together. ~

That's enough for me.

get what you want with your lucky eyes

2009-12-21T03:57:00.000-08:00

individuality is vitally important. When people start to lose their individuality, they start to lose themselves.
- Brittany Murphy

well, what can i say.. she is my most fav person in the world from afar..
my one true idol..
there's always something about her genuineness and vulnerability that stands out from the rest of the world.. seemingly unfazed by the glitz and the glam of hollywood.
perhaps it was the highs and lows that killed her..
or perhaps her presence was just to beautiful for this world..
indeed she had always strike a cord in my heart the first time i saw her movie many years ago when i was a little gal..
who am i to judge her?

~ may your soul rest in peace..~

The Dewdrops

2009-12-14T07:21:00.000-08:00

how does it feel having your secrets safe with you?

i have so much faith in you..
forgive me.. i may be wrong..

but i think i just fucking saved your life..

~In order to do really great things, you need to make really great mistakes..~

eleanor. nayrb

2009-11-20T07:35:00.000-08:00

fuck i love this song.

Fine, I understand, okay with me, if that's the plan. You can take the stereo, the TV and the video, the bed the sheets and pillows, before you go. But for now, unlock the door, what are we doin' all this for? Let me make you dinner one last time, then you'll go your way, and I'll go mine.

And I won't call you baby, anymore, won't call you baby, like I did before, won't call you baby, anymore, Eleanor. You left your smell, you left your taste, you left me here with my mistakes. And I can't relate to what you say I've done, but just for you, I'll bite my tongue.

And I won't call you baby, anymore, won't call you baby, like I did before, won't call you baby, anymore, Eleanor. Eleanor I miss you, Eleanor be well, Eleanor I wish you'd release me from your spell.

* i muse at myself now looking back, calling myself eleanor when i was a little girl, way before this song.. weird. i wasn't contented with krystal. back then.

fuck adam cohen is so hottttt!!!!!!!!!!!! i wanna marry him. wake up* blink blink*

~ ur moving way too fast at the wrong lane.. but i wouldn't mind if ur at the rite way..~

the journey

2009-11-17T09:55:00.000-08:00

i will just go with the flow.. and the answers will provide itself when the right time comes..
i guess this is just inevitable. and see what happen next. =)

of course, everything will be alright..

~and i promise you, im doing the best i can.. now don't fool yourself, into thinking you're more than you are..~

tres flores

2009-11-07T01:05:00.000-08:00

well.. look what we've got here.. it came just in time..

we both know what it is.. XD

oh what big dream it has..

i would say
you are the most welcome..

mon cherie

2009-10-21T07:19:00.000-07:00

everything will be alrite. i think i can do this. one of the few reasons that keeps me goin strong.

~in my eyes you are still you ~

lucky you

2009-10-14T08:28:00.000-07:00

its scary sometimes to be left in the dark... but i guess there is comfort in darkness.
this is the time where i choose not to succumb..
sometimes i just sleep so comfortably.. together with my secrets held tight.
looking back, I've learnt a great deal.. but they will keep coming.. the learning never stops.
till the day im dead.

soon enough

2009-10-08T00:49:00.000-07:00

things don't seem so far away after all..
happiness is attainable..
i believe something good will happen soon..

the voyage

2009-09-21T07:35:00.000-07:00

okay.. so i went to hk around the 20 sth of august for a 5 days trip. its was really fun. managed to get to a few places like Central, Causeway Bay (fav), Fortress hill ( private resident area and serviced apartment), North Point, Yau Ma Tei and we stayed in a hotel called Park Hotel in Tsim Sha Tsui ( highest concentration of hotels and major tourist area), managed to go to ladies street and temple street too. the shopping alone was really fun. it could be better if i had more moolah to spend. Stationed at Tsim Sha Tsui and i remember the first meal i ate. Pork chop rice with soup. Not bad. Better than any pork chop rice in M'sia. They really serve excellent authentic Korean cuisine at Tsim Sha Tsui. Better than M'sia too i would say. The dim sum there is heaven. A far cry from M'sia. Then on our 3rd day we went to this small italian restaurant called 789 Unit & Co in Times Square. The food there was really good. Better than most of the Italian restaurants in Malaysia i would say. But rather pricey tho. and then there was this cafe called the Italian Tomato cafe. which sells one of the best cake in the world. managed to try the cheesecake. there are really no cheesecake like that in M'sia, like seriously. it even put the ones in secret recipe to shame. lolz. i know, it's not that im putting my own country down, im just comparing as a matter of factly.

my pork chop rice. day 1.

My salad.. forgotten the fancy names. (the names were really fancy but forgettable)

my penne and scallop risotto. again, no need for fancy names.

me. ^^

my bed.
then it was shopping and food and shopping. really no sceneries or nature sight seeing done. managed to buy some really nice clothes ( but the stuff there are really not that cheap >.<) And a pair of bright fuchsia-pink leggings with stars adorned in the sides, pink satin sequined flats ;) , esprit bra. and a La Perla perfume. my fave luxe line lingerie brand. there's always something about perfumes from lingerie line that marks a subtle difference from just another ordinary branded fragrance.

with family frens in hk. they were really really warm and welcoming throughout the whole period of the visit. ^^

the ivory fluffy cheesecake. ^^

mid lunch.. :)

my hello kitty watch..

and my eau de toilette.. ^^

overall, the vacation was nicee.. and i still love Malaysia. signing off. peace out. ~~

the thing with you

2009-09-14T04:33:00.001-07:00

I've tried to say it a thousand different ways. I've tried twisting the words inside out and doubling them back over onto themselves. I've tried coming up with words in different languages, because maybe they have words for this thing (I couldn't say what it is) that we're missing in this one. I've tried saying the same words over and over again in hopes that this time they'll mean what I want them to mean. I've tried writing it down and spelling it out and stressing each syllable across intercontinental static. I've filled up pages and pages of paper with what I'm trying to say, but never with what I mean to say. Maybe it annoyed you in the end. Maybe I should just stop.

- Loren Barnes

bandage

2009-09-02T06:20:00.000-07:00

~ So if you can't stay, walk away slowly. Rip the plaster off bit by bit, piece by piece. Because I'd rather feel that than nothing at all. ~

links from i wrote this for you~

the marrow of the heart

2009-08-31T07:39:00.000-07:00

~ so they say when 2 people merge together, another personality surface. this third personality becomes what they are.
even if it doesn't blend, somehow they were never the same person like they once were when each goes their separate ways.. because the third dynamics stays. ~

knock you down

2009-08-25T10:18:00.000-07:00

~ I never thought I'd be in love like this
When I look at you my mind goes on a trip
Then you came in and knocked me on my face
Feels like I'm in a race but I already won first place

I never thought I fall for you as hard as I did
You got me thinking about our life,our house and kids
Every morning I look at you and smile
Cause boy you came around and you knocked me down ~

well, for the third line of the second verse not technically.. but it's pretty good still.. lolz.. anyway, i will be goin to hong kong this thursday for the first time. one of my very fav countries.^^
pleasantly happy at the thought.. but not really excited. ironically, the thought of being in a plane kinda excites me more.. always lurve traveling on airplane, the longer distance the better. im just worried that i don't have enough money to spend there.. lol.. my holidays are over as soon as i come back from hk.. uugghhh..

~So you gotta take the good with the bad, the happy and the sad
Or will you bring the better future then I had in the past
Cause I don't want to make the same mistakes i did
I don't wanna fall back on my face again~

fragments of lyrics by Keri Hilson~

the faith

2009-08-15T09:52:00.000-07:00

i went to the same salon at 'the gardens' cut and dyed my hair in a tone of 'light ash blond' yesterday. well, it ain't really that blond anyway, altho the name says otherwise. no pics to prove it now.. cam went out of battery. but will do in the future. this color is just perfect for me in the meanwhile. but im definately goin darker in the future. mahogany will be just nice.
im starting to love the scent of freshly dyed hair, the scent of hair color chemical somewhat calms me. somehow the future seems more promising every time i get a whiff of my hair. that no matter what would transcend, things wouldn't get so bad. and that everything is a few shades darker in my mind when compared to the reality. sometimes your mind becomes a ball of mess. but sometimes happiness still transcend from all the disarray. perhaps this is also a form of confusion. but then again, perhaps this confusion shouldn't exist. after all, my mind is a few shades darker.

~ beneath this facade.. silently im praying.. that please let there be more than that..~

undecided

2009-08-03T11:50:00.000-07:00

am currently enjoying my holidays.. time to unwind and relax.. :)
will be doing my hair the around the next week or so.. am pondering on which salon should i go to this time.. well, not that the previous one at The Gardens wasn't good, just that i'd been wanting to try out a new hair salon.

now that my hair is getting longer.. ahh.. been testing out my new cam these days.. and i wonder.. is it the camera or is it me, why does my nose look big in pic? ;(
somehow i was thinking perhaps it's the model of this camera.. and that with every different camera model takes pictures differently.. or does it not matter at all what model or brand it is.. it solely depends on the physical attributes of the person inside the picture.. somehow, ironically in some kinda twisted thought in my mind, i kinda wish that it wasn't the camera's fault. because if it is then it means i shouldn't hav bought this model and i would start to regret it until i buy another brand new one. which is totally ridiculous especially for no 'valid' enough reasons. "oh hey, you just bought a brand new one that u barely even used yet, why would you go and buy another one?" then i'll go "oh cos, my nose looks big wit this model, perhaps even the other models of the same brand wouldn't". i wonder whether it makes sense.. kinda not so much i guess?
so.. yea.. it's just me.. absolutely nothing to do with my camera.. or was it the angle? =.=

well, okay.. actually i really hate to admit but i do regret buying this color. ( i bought the metallic light brown one.. should hav went with my first choice and gotten the metallic blue one.. darn.. sometimes i just always tend to want the other stuff that i don't have).

perhaps i should take my mind of it already.. okayy then.. what color should i go for, for my hair? what cut should i go for? i can't make up my mind yet also .. =P

bryan lee

2009-07-28T12:03:00.000-07:00

ohh hey.. i nearly forgotten.. happy 7th month anniversary stupid!!!!
you just always make me so so happy.. (well, for most of the time at least)

well, even tho ur not as perfect as i first thought you were...

~ i love you with all my heart.. ~

when black is not a color

2009-07-28T10:16:00.000-07:00

it's kinda been a while ever since my last post..
life is indeed refreshing without cigs..
on a really random note.. i need a white shirt.. for obvious reasons.. no one can deny the purpose of a good crisp white shirt.
so i need to find one that is decent at the same time which doesn't burn a hole inside my already holey pocket.. XD

~ shut my eyes.. feel the color of you
time to be alone .. to find a place where i belong..~

Doubt

2009-07-19T01:27:00.000-07:00

~Oh, how I wish you wouldn't worry so. There's hope in every breath. But when fear infects the bones, I'm told, the heart is always next. ~

links from ~ i wrote this for you~