Across the Universe

lollipops turn into cigarettes. the innocent ones turns into sluts. homework goes in the trash. mobile phones are being used in class. detention becomes suspension. soda becomes vodka. bikes become cars. kisses turn into sex. remember when getting high means swinging on the playground? when protection meant wearing a helmet? when the worst things you could get from boys were cooties? dad"s shoulder's were the highest place on earth and mom was your hero? your worst enemies were your siblings. race issues were about who ran the fastest. war was only a card game. and the only drug you knew was cough medicine. when wearing a skirt didn't make you a slut. the most pain you felt was when you skinned your knees, and goodbyes only meant until tomorrow? and we couldn't wait to grow up.

- via batteredandbruised.


and so i remembered there was a time when i was still a kid, about 9 or 10. i really couldn't wait to grow up. sometimes i would look into the mirror, wondering how tall would i grow up to be. turns out that i was an inch taller than i imagined. and i always wonder at what type of young lady (lol) that i would grow up to be.. i would look at the older jie jie's around me, some would pair everything mini skirts, some are a specky nerdy- bunch, while some lives in flared jeans and t-shirt, and some of them tried to look cool with big tees and sweatpants (which i thought was really cool, at that age) but it was always a lot of denim mini skirts. not so much of denim shorts. at least that's what the teens around me was wearing. so i would always wonder.. would that be me when i grow up? or would i wear big t-shirts around and be really cool too? i was always wearing my mickey mouse and winnie the pooh t-shirts. i thought i was too old for dresses. and i didnt really look as good in denim minis as those older girls. so i put the cotton ones away. till im 16, i thought.. i will wear the same skirt, and i will look as good as them. and then everyone starts baring their midriff with short tank tops or low waist-ed flared jeans. and i was a few years older by then, so i tried baring mine one day, two days, and then i went back to my Pikachu t shirt. up till today i don't own a denim mini. only the cotton ones.
i prefer the 40's look. dresses with well defined waist and an 'hour-glass' silhouette. i guess i would make a slightly better oriental pin up girl than some tummy baring britney-wannabes.

The metal rabbit

I have a feeling that im not going to like year 2011 very much. strangely, I've stopped enjoying Chinese new year somewhere ever since the past few years. it wasn't torture, but it's like i couldn't wait for the whole thing to end. and i wouldn't know the reasons either, if someone were to ask me why.

maybe it's because i know it's not going to be all rainbows like the promise of every new year. i guess it's what most people do. painting pretty pictures at the beginning of every year, each one more beautiful than the previous.
i may be wrong.
so what if there's going to be plenty? you can't do much with rainbows, can you?







~He gave me that night back and this time, I told you the truth. We talked and held each other till the sun came up. And as I went to hell, the devil asked me if it was worth it. I said yes. Yes it was. ~

Nix the Blues

Blue cupcakes always makes my day.

as if things were this simple.

i wish it was that simple.

i wish I was this simple.

a blue cupcake a day, keeps the blues away.





~ if only you are a blue cupcake.. ~

Pause and Rewind

You asked me how. i said i don't know either. sometimes we just have to believe that the good is going to come. you told me you are tired. so i told you that believing should be like breathing. it takes no effort.






~ in rare moments i forget to breath, for a split second every flicker of thoughts paused too. i'd rather have a rewind.. ~

The Space Within

There is nothing scary about choices. Scary is when you don't have a choice. sometimes when we think we aren't left with any. truth is, there are always choices.

My strange little world go passing me by

my blog was dead.. halfway revived now. probably because i've nothing interesting nor mundane to blog about for the past many weeks. or perhaps i'm experiencing what you might call a writer's block.. but im not much of a writer. perhaps i've just been darn lazy * i still have loads of pics that i hadn't upload yet, which i would, soon* or maybe i've just prefer to store everything at the back of my mind these days without jotting it down in writing.

i've kinda realize that one shouldn't post a blog on emotions before the blog dies off. if the previous post was somewhat dark and somber, whoever who read it might conclude things must had been so bitter and forlorn for her that she dies off slowly together with her blog. a slow and painful death.

or if it was ever a post so sparkling, cheery and upbeat. they might have thought.. look how elated she is. she must probably still be locked up in a deliriously rosy state that she decided to abandon her blog all together. and lived a happily ever after life somewhere.

but then again, whether you decided to leave your blog out to die in the cold hard ground or the warm summer solstice, it makes no difference.

a happy death is still a death.

*in the case of blogs, they can be dead and revived a zillion amount of times, depending on mood*

Crème de la Crème 6#

Diane Kruger's outfit is casual yet stylish in a very British kinda way. but yet very few figures can pull it off.

Carey Mulligan in Roland Mouret. i like the silhouette of the dress. i like how formal it looks.


Heidi Klum in Roland Mouret again :D. Love the color and the stripes. and the way the dress falls off-shoulder.

Miss Katy Perry in Zuhair Murad> She said she is a smurfette. Check out the the patch for the armpit. with crystals too.


Check out the crystals =D.


Front view. this amazing dress will only look amazing in blue hair and bright yellow nail. someone with real life hair would spoils the magic in this dress. it means, you can only wear this when you are a smurfette.

i don't mind wearing a blue wig and donning bright yellow nails. but im not sure if i will ever wear something like this tho.

Emmy Rossum in a beaded Marchesa gown. i really like the dress. or is it her body that i like actually XD.