cognitive dissonance?

i am stressed out.. all stressed out.. with the assignments and stuff.. i need to do this piece regarding cognitive dissonance.. and i need to pull thru and fair well in it.. fucking 15 pages.. damn.. it does not help cos i lost my motivation. and im running out of time. but deep down inside i know i will pull thru successfully.. yea.. well, cos i hav to. there ain't much choices.. and im listing out journals now for the assignment.
and once in a while i fall into this state of melancholia.. (im not sure if it's even a word, technically speaking). i just feel like a doughnut. it sounds a lil funny, come to think of it.
met him again after bout a year.. for sum funny reasons that does not quite make perfect sense to me, he has the notion that i was still into him. and had not fail to point that out to me verbally. i found that a bit ridiculous at first, at how sumone can be so .. over-confident despite various reasons. i guess its a good trait.. if we were to see things in a different perception. these illusions that we hav for ourselves regarding ourselves. i'm afraid i can't help but to judge a person as disillusioned as him. nevertheless, i didn't hav the heart to tell him that he just lost the X factor that i once thought he possessed and that i view things differently.. he just lost it. lol.
nah.. don't think that anyone would know who im talkin bout.. unless.. for a few , i guess. anyway, i just wanna do good in this assignment. hectic sem ..