hectic month.. im gonna hav exams next week onwards.. and i still hav not start my revisions yet.. typical me..
okay.. i think i need to chill... like.. no matter wat.. am feeling kinda edgy and restless.. nth feels rite.. even blogging rite now feels totally weird.. and now.. even being under my skin feels weird.. i wonder hav anyone ever felt the same..i bet they do.. just not as consistent as me .. i guess.
okay.. now im speechless again..
few things on my mind.. as much as i would luv to kiss and tell... i dont think so for now.. at least not this time.. but.. ahhh.. its just random random small things... nothing big that would make people go wide-eyed..
yea.. by da way.. kobee.. i dig ur blog cos.. u kinda write (good) shit.. and by writing shit and not giving a shit bout other people that dont matters? just imo..
so u suppose i shud just chill too... yea.. zen-like.. lol
but sumtimes u just cant help it when ur mind is playing fuck with u.. or can u? especially when ur seeing shit sum where.. and u cant help it but to feel.. erm.. not feel so nice.. mentally or wat.. (even tho u don hav any valid reasons to feel that way anymore, except for .. it just stirs up some of the stufss that u had learned to put behind). and talkin doesnt really help about it.. cos u hav been goin in circles.. even the closest ones to u would go, 'tell me sum latest news instead, not the old ones'.. and u urself knows that better than the rest of them.. lol..
but of cos ur fine now.. how could u be not fine after so many days of unfine..
Sunday, November 30, 2008
Sunday, November 16, 2008
zen
been goin thru sum mild depression these days.. or was it ever since i could barely remember? somehow i feel like im falling..sinking.. and some days i feel.. empty.. vacuum empty kinda way. and i have very low arousal levels, and i was constantly seeking for things that would level up my moods or spirits..it's like.. 'wat do u really want deep within you?' i wouldn't say that i don't know, but perhaps i would need to dig deeper into my own can of worms*. as sometimes humans tend to like to live in denial. just plain simple human characteristics. anyway, i just don't wanna complain or whine much bout it.. will try to be as chilled and placid as possible from now onwards. i don't lash out at people no matter what kinda state im in tho. it's just me dealing with me and my circumstances. i just feel.. precarious. yeap, that's the word.
but from now onwards i wanna be zen..i wanna have a more sunny disposition, on the inside too. well, im always sunny on the outside.. kinda.i guess at the end of the day, it's just important in finding ur purpose in life.
and ohh, when i browsed back my posts.. i find grammar mistakes on some of it. not good. shud be more careful of it next time. i think that u ought to hav perfect grammar especially if ur blogging, unless if it's a slang and ur doin it on purpose.
as i think it's kinda a turn-off if ur posting shitty england in ur blog. as a matter of fact, i did came across one or two blogs. (am tryin to be vague here so that it ain't sound like a personal thing, ain't dissing no one here) it spells total disregard for the people who reads it, insulting their inteligence.. surely they can't be that dumb rite? or rather, surely they can't be as dumb and blockheaded as u are, rite? even tho u might think that they are at the same standard as u, given the benefit of the doubt, that u don't realise u are hopeless in english., lol.
just an opinion, which could very much be a fact. thk you. am getting tired. gonna sleep, hav to wake up damn 7 early tomoro.
~ so you became nothing but lucid memories...pieces and fragments of it, yet so vivid and poignant.. even tho time passes..~
but from now onwards i wanna be zen..i wanna have a more sunny disposition, on the inside too. well, im always sunny on the outside.. kinda.i guess at the end of the day, it's just important in finding ur purpose in life.
and ohh, when i browsed back my posts.. i find grammar mistakes on some of it. not good. shud be more careful of it next time. i think that u ought to hav perfect grammar especially if ur blogging, unless if it's a slang and ur doin it on purpose.
as i think it's kinda a turn-off if ur posting shitty england in ur blog. as a matter of fact, i did came across one or two blogs. (am tryin to be vague here so that it ain't sound like a personal thing, ain't dissing no one here) it spells total disregard for the people who reads it, insulting their inteligence.. surely they can't be that dumb rite? or rather, surely they can't be as dumb and blockheaded as u are, rite? even tho u might think that they are at the same standard as u, given the benefit of the doubt, that u don't realise u are hopeless in english., lol.
just an opinion, which could very much be a fact. thk you. am getting tired. gonna sleep, hav to wake up damn 7 early tomoro.
~ so you became nothing but lucid memories...pieces and fragments of it, yet so vivid and poignant.. even tho time passes..~
Friday, November 14, 2008
dearest lipstick
shit!!!!!!!!!!!!!! g0ddamn it! the lipstick!!!!!!!!!!!! how could u??
one of my most famous tv show 'lipstick jungle' wouldn't be renewed after the second season after all.. due to not high enuff ratings..... absurd.. and i thought everything bout the show was so good.. just nice.. like.. really entertaining..
i was really looking forward towards its second season. the casts were so cute.. and i thought, it would at least run for 5 or 6 seasons.. it is that good.
everything about that show was like i've said.. just nice.. perfectly done.. the cast were perfecto.
it's such a disapointment. damn it !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i don't understand... like.. seriously. how could they? im dumfounded by this news now.. shite.............
imagine if suddenly , for u gals, gossip girl suddenly get pulled out from the network, or prison break suddenly stopped running.. (with both the bros just stay in prison,must be getting life sentence, since ur not seeing anymore of them anymore either)
eh, mana boleh mereka buat cam tuu... ishh.....!!!!!!!!!!!!
ohh well, let it go krystal.. let it be.. among other things to let go.. let this go too.. it does not matter, just a tv show after all.. (not that i dunno) =.= . but still.... are they blind or wat?
one of my most famous tv show 'lipstick jungle' wouldn't be renewed after the second season after all.. due to not high enuff ratings..... absurd.. and i thought everything bout the show was so good.. just nice.. like.. really entertaining..
i was really looking forward towards its second season. the casts were so cute.. and i thought, it would at least run for 5 or 6 seasons.. it is that good.
everything about that show was like i've said.. just nice.. perfectly done.. the cast were perfecto.
it's such a disapointment. damn it !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i don't understand... like.. seriously. how could they? im dumfounded by this news now.. shite.............
imagine if suddenly , for u gals, gossip girl suddenly get pulled out from the network, or prison break suddenly stopped running.. (with both the bros just stay in prison,must be getting life sentence, since ur not seeing anymore of them anymore either)
eh, mana boleh mereka buat cam tuu... ishh.....!!!!!!!!!!!!
ohh well, let it go krystal.. let it be.. among other things to let go.. let this go too.. it does not matter, just a tv show after all.. (not that i dunno) =.= . but still.... are they blind or wat?
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
the girl who trod on a loaf
my assignment's due date is coming nearer and nearer.. and i still haven started anythin on it yet.. i surely hope im gonna start tomoro.. been having headaches since shisha last nite and this headache comes at nite.. which is like.. now.
anyway, i read this fairytale by andersen titled 'the girl who trod on a loaf' . its about a proud and arrogant gal named Inger (luv her name , by da way) who was proud of who she is, cos most of all, she was proud of her beauty cos she is a really pretty gal (the story says).And she looked down upon her parents cos they were just simply dirt poor people. fast forward.. she was sent as a servant to sum rich family and she was wearing her best clothes and her best shoes.. to impress her mom.. and she passed by this marsh.. who is really murky and muddy, for fear of spoilling or dirtying her shoes.. she troded on the loaf of bread that she bought along.. then she fell deep inside the marsh and , got punished and went thru bout a century of sufferings and hell..
im not saying that i can relate to her but im defending her in sum ways.. i mean, come on.. if i were to hav my most expensive shoes on or my fav shoes, i would trod on a loaf too, not just a loaf, maybe even two or three. i know that u shouldn't insult food like that as there's karma. but, realistically speaking.. one hav to weigh the pro's and cons rationally..(if such situations do arise, altho rare)for example, stepping on the bread to save a pair of jimmy choo's is a valid enuff
reason la..
just 'imo'.. 'in my opinion'.. of one of my fav fairytales.. just learned it from TK.. can't believe im bad with acronyms.. i only know 'wtf''.. lol. didnt even know wats lmao for a long time before he told me wat's that.. everyone was like goin 'lmao' when i was wondering wat the heck was that..
sign off,
krys
anyway, i read this fairytale by andersen titled 'the girl who trod on a loaf' . its about a proud and arrogant gal named Inger (luv her name , by da way) who was proud of who she is, cos most of all, she was proud of her beauty cos she is a really pretty gal (the story says).And she looked down upon her parents cos they were just simply dirt poor people. fast forward.. she was sent as a servant to sum rich family and she was wearing her best clothes and her best shoes.. to impress her mom.. and she passed by this marsh.. who is really murky and muddy, for fear of spoilling or dirtying her shoes.. she troded on the loaf of bread that she bought along.. then she fell deep inside the marsh and , got punished and went thru bout a century of sufferings and hell..
im not saying that i can relate to her but im defending her in sum ways.. i mean, come on.. if i were to hav my most expensive shoes on or my fav shoes, i would trod on a loaf too, not just a loaf, maybe even two or three. i know that u shouldn't insult food like that as there's karma. but, realistically speaking.. one hav to weigh the pro's and cons rationally..(if such situations do arise, altho rare)for example, stepping on the bread to save a pair of jimmy choo's is a valid enuff
reason la..
just 'imo'.. 'in my opinion'.. of one of my fav fairytales.. just learned it from TK.. can't believe im bad with acronyms.. i only know 'wtf''.. lol. didnt even know wats lmao for a long time before he told me wat's that.. everyone was like goin 'lmao' when i was wondering wat the heck was that..
sign off,
krys
Sunday, November 9, 2008
clueless?
first impressions.. sometimes i do wonder how much does it counts? most often we find ourselves having made wrong impressions bout people.. but sumtimes, in sum cases for sum ppl, first impressions are real.. wat u see, is kinda wat u get.. but just how often would u meet that kinda people? rare...
sumtimes u cant even trust ur own opinion or instincts about sumone new whom u just met.. i know i cant trust mine.. (well, at least im not living in denial, as most people are often confident bout their judgement of people, based on first or second impression) but i guess, timing does play a part too.. different settings invokes different type of personalities, and humans change in the course of environment and settings and time..
but sumtimes, it's sad to see that the person whom u thought he/she was.. is actually the other way round.. very much different.. it's good if it's for the better, but real bad if it's for the worse..
the moral of the story? never ever expect things from the others but urself. unfortunately, there's always this subconcious expectation from us towards the other person.. i guess everyone are like that..
anyway, i just met this sumone new..very recently..yea... so... i'll be seeing to see if im right .. ;P
sumtimes u cant even trust ur own opinion or instincts about sumone new whom u just met.. i know i cant trust mine.. (well, at least im not living in denial, as most people are often confident bout their judgement of people, based on first or second impression) but i guess, timing does play a part too.. different settings invokes different type of personalities, and humans change in the course of environment and settings and time..
but sumtimes, it's sad to see that the person whom u thought he/she was.. is actually the other way round.. very much different.. it's good if it's for the better, but real bad if it's for the worse..
the moral of the story? never ever expect things from the others but urself. unfortunately, there's always this subconcious expectation from us towards the other person.. i guess everyone are like that..
anyway, i just met this sumone new..very recently..yea... so... i'll be seeing to see if im right .. ;P
Friday, November 7, 2008
placidity.. i wish it would stay
went out with denise like.. last two weeks ago? kinda forgotten when.. we went to ikea for swedish meatballs.. lurve em.. and then went to the curve for some coffee due to the miss coffee addict.. she couldnt stand a day without em.. =.= . not really into caffeine myself.. prefer nicotine.. but oh.. i hope im definately quitting soon.. when we were there.. at this place called Kluang Station, a guy paid for our drinks and left anonymously without us noticing.. the waitress told us bout it after we wanted to pay for the drinks.. "erm, you kenal dia ke?" i was like.. err.. tak. she was staring blankly at us for like few seconds.. 'wat? u wan us to pay u one more time just cos we tak kenal dia? i thought. lol..
ahh.. anyway, i was thinking.. must be due to denise's de charme.. serious.. =D
bought a pair of new earrings too but lost it on the same day. due to my stupid bag.. i always lost stuff occasionally whenever im out with that bag.. thrown that bag away.. i need a deeper bag.. ;-p
and ohh, luckily i finished most of my assignment, i guess it went well.. but there's still another two.. bein staying grounded at home lately.. life of a uni student.. aiks
me and her
anyway, just sum random shots..
pms-ing now.. feeling a lil placid but uncongenial at the same time.. placidness thks to some chemics ?
krys
ahh.. anyway, i was thinking.. must be due to denise's de charme.. serious.. =D
bought a pair of new earrings too but lost it on the same day. due to my stupid bag.. i always lost stuff occasionally whenever im out with that bag.. thrown that bag away.. i need a deeper bag.. ;-p
and ohh, luckily i finished most of my assignment, i guess it went well.. but there's still another two.. bein staying grounded at home lately.. life of a uni student.. aiks
me and her
anyway, just sum random shots..
pms-ing now.. feeling a lil placid but uncongenial at the same time.. placidness thks to some chemics ?
krys
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