au revoir xaviera

....................... im gonna get used to it right? not being able to hear your voice almost every nite before i sleep.. not being able to hear from a to z about how's your day, however mundane or boring it is ( i still enjoy listening to it).. not being able to laugh at ur funny antics and ur so-hainess.. not being able to just pick up the fon and dial up ur num everytime i feel like it. not being able to listen to you complain about occasional stupid people that ticks you off. not being able to kill time talkin to you on the fon while waiting for another call to come in ( yea, you know who..) not being able to spend as much time as we would like to. not being able to listen to all your problems and u listening to me goin on and on about mine.. which could be quite unreasonable at times i know..

i know the first three weeks without you is goin to be the hardest.. i wanna see you tomorrow if its possible.. im sure you will be able to learn loads of things there.. and while ur learning, pls don't forget about me here okay.. perhaps time will fly so quick and before i know it.. we'll be meeting each other again, and hav lotsa fun together again..

i love you. till we meet again. ( by da way, tomoro not counted laa)
promise me that you'll always feel the same for me okay.. and that we won't grow apart.
p.s: buy some things for me while ur at there okay. you still fucking owe me my birthday gift baby.

the realist

i told mr. K what happened last nite. and then he said something like this.. 'people normally doesn't show this kind of sincerity.. you watch too many movies.'
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thats the first time i've heard people say that.. but it's true. and interesting to me. i told him that he is realistic.. which is good. he said that being realistic does not mean being successful.
i think that there is a link between them. just that realists themselves doesn't think so. thats what realists are. he said i just made something nonsensical.. sensible.
yea, due to watching too many movies. i said.

dreams water

im feeling bored.. tired and unmotivated today.. and i hav loads of assignment to pass up. the nearest due next week. and i have been having a lot of weird dreams lately, dreams of people in the pasts. there were people that were that im very okay with in real life. and there were also people that i would prefer not to associate myself with. so having said that, it were all weird to me. and i dream that there were people who were trying to pull me down. people whom i barely know and whom only reminded me of their existence in my dream . but in my dreams i was happy. reality-wise, i am happier. except for being a lil thirsty now. so i'd go downstairs now and fetch myself a glass of water.