in times like this i wish winehouse was still alive. in spite of what's goin on, i know that there would be more great music to come. my life is a fucking roller-coaster. at the end of the day, i know i'll come out of it a much better person. by the end of this year, i will know everything that i need to know. no doubt about it.
"You have until the hour you die to do everything you've ever really wanted to do and say everything you've ever really wanted to say. It sounds less fair when you get older."
sometimes when i look back at my posts.. i realise that it seem very restricted. my words are restricted, my thoughts are censored. and perhaps it was all just surface grazing. or was it? perhaps i could have had expressed myself better. or maybe i chose not to..
i guess the older we are.. the more we would choose to keep things to ourselves. and our lives are no longer an open book.
but then again i think that, if i could have the liberty of writing whatever i want here.. it would certainly piss many people off. namely females i would say?... but that's just an obvious example that i could think of, at the moment. i do have the privilege of knowing some really smart and independent young women, with really good head on their shoulders. but what im saying are.. just ignorant people in general, or perhaps people with a fragile high self- esteem. esteem so high, but yet so easily shaken. tho i absolutely dont despise my own kind.. but as i dont really see certain stereotypical females as my own kind.. so it's safe to say that there are no contradictions to my above statement.
speaking of which, i've had this funny encounter with a young girl. an acquaintance. we were at a bar. we were talkin, and the topic goes (which i wouldnt wanna delve further on it as i dont wanna offend anybody who happens to be here on my blog, who happens to know what happened), i was complementing her bout her personality.. well honestly, just for fcuk's sake, not that i really knew what her personality is, in just a short 5 min convo. she seem quite uncomfortable and out of place, and was kinda trying to hide it by acting "cool and friendly", so i was sorta kinda tryin to make her feel more at ease, was with there with this guy she was dating, which happens to be the only person she knew there. and funnily, after a few drinks, she turned to me and said.. oh krystal, seriously what do you mean by 'that'? me: "huh.. sorry what?". her: are you saying im not good enough for him? are you saying im not pretty enough?? which i realised.. she was referring to the convo that took place 45 mins ago. and i had to explain to her that 'oh noo.. i didnt meant it that way at all...' and it made me felt bad for how she felt, tho i couldn't understand why. but then i said in a very as a matter of fact manner "well the thing is, i never thought about it that way until you yourself pointed it out, its actually obvious now that people had made comments about you in the past and you, yourself felt that ur not good enough too, as i've never even said anything similar to what you think i meant". needless to say, she opposed my statement and was very adamant about it. honestly, there is no need for such mental upset babe.
another funny encounter, which happened more recently, was in Miss Selfridge shopping and trying on clothes. there was quite a queue as it was the anniversary of DNP clothing. so everything was 20% *yay*. so anyway, as i went in, tried on my clothes and got out, talked to one of the staff to inquire about new pieces. yea thats just me, i always ask for new pieces, unless if there are none, then i'll decide if i really like the designs, so much that i would be more than happy to just settle for the piece that i tried on, then i wouldn't mind.
so back to the story.. there was this girl in the front line, she was clearly very tall and 'big -sized', note: fat, with falsies, high heels and all.waiting to get into the fitting room that i had gotten out, she was huffing and puffing on impatience, eyeing me from head to toe and crossing her arms, clearly making it known to me that she was done waiting. miss princess couldn't wait to slam the door hard, as soon as she went in. well i had to say, all she did was to wait for a mere1 min for me to be done. i was thinking, 'okay, chill.. "fei mui", no need to show me ur dissatisfaction'. then i noticed.. hey isnt this the 'model' that happened to be a friend's friend.. then i remembered my cousin telling me that she seen her before outside a karaoke lounge, looking all la-di-da and snooty, standing in one corner while the friends were enquiring in the counter. and she (cousin) mentioned that this princess was really chubby and big-boned', round face, and all.we did wonder how she could pass as a 'model', to give her the benefit of the doubt, perhaps she didnt look like this back then.
now.. before i proceed, let me say that i have nothing against fat girls, not at all.i dont mind if anybody is tall, short, fat, aneroxic, pretty, ugly.. etc.. it doesn't concern me anyways. and people are free to look however they want, and to be able to display it however they like. and most of all girls with round faces, i think they look cute, in a good way. i myself don't have an 'oval' face shape... at all, which had always been coined as the classic beauty for a face and i was never a size "0" either. * well.. am a size "2"*. so i dont think that it would be fair for me to criticize, unless one could pass on constructive criticism, else its better to just keep quiet. but the statements that i made were more out of me being a detailed person as opposed to other reasons. i guess i just have a knack for being detailed and observant when it comes to certain things.. and this would be one of the example. so its not the looks that im criticizing here, its the attitude that i find hilarious. for someone who claimed to have a resemblance towards angelababy. err.. okay, whatever rocks your boat.
writing this made me realise that.. there are really all sort of people that one could find in this world. any sort of person at all that one could think of, and this person does indeed exist.
and i had always entertained the notion that characters in novels does exist (fantasy & sic-fi not included). perhaps not identical by 100% but prolly 70 or more. so i guess there's always a 'Carrie' out there in the big apple. or a beautiful yet depressed young woman named Veronika from Ljublhana, Slovenia.
i am so damn angry right now. i almost finished this post when suddenly the whole page disappeared and it wasnt being saved. i wrote a bunch of stuffs just now. about hong kong. about the good and the bad, about wonderful things, the diversity of the culture, of the old hong kong and the new hong kong. about this stupid bitch who spoke to me back in english *malaysian or singaporean accent* telling me to say "Excuse me" in english, in a very very rude manner when i said 'excuse me please' in cantonese. in any case, the only reason on why i said 'excuse me please' in cantonese, was more of for your benefit than for my benefit, bitch. how the hell would i know if you are more comfy with canton or english as well? after all, from the way you speak, you're either a singaporean or a malaysian, so stop acting like a bitch, bitch! gosh.. i wrote about so many things and posted 37 pictures. now its all gone. i cant be bothered to write it all again now.
I thought of making it into something like a photolog marked "Day _" but my memories fails me. all i could remember was my conversations with the shop assistants, fragments of thoughts as i was walking down the streets and how freezing cold (10 degree celcius) it was as the days go by.
since there are quite a few pictures to post up, i guess i'll have to divide it into two parts. no.... on second thoughts, i'll just post up everything here in one go because i dont know when will it be in posting up ""Part 2".
nevertheless, here are the long overdue pictures. in no particular order.
we had wanted to go for a movie. but the timing was off and surprisingly, the tics were more than twice the price here. *outside the cinema*
a woman from China who made this. i was told that all the different characters were of the same meaning, just from a different time and era.
my guess is there was already glue on top of the paper. as the white powder did not get blown away from the occasional strong wind.
Biboy. the most entertaining travel companion you can find. very smart too. who tells me that he thinks that physics is more diverse than biology. well, i dont know.. but its a good thing that one has an opinion in academic subjects. i remember that my fave subject was literature (tho in our Malaysian education, the lits we read was nothing but infantile). and recess. that was it.
tsim tsa tsui.
i couldnt recall where that was.
i couldnt recall this either. tho the "K" mart was everywhere.
at a complex in Tsim Tsa Tsui. i should have remembered the name since i've been there trice. but no.. (am not wearing lipstick, just a lipbalm .. anymore colder my lips would have turn white).
hong kong steamboat. the steamboat in Malaysia sucks.
beef slices. i think it was called the 'creamy' or 'milky' beef slice in canton.
Duck intestines.
Welcome to Lan Kwai Fong.
and in these pics from below. i tried to test my skills in taking pictures. well... i thought all of them was not bad for a first timer, to be honest. but then again its all personal preferences aint it.
Hard Rock in HK. i have yet to visit.
the places that i took in Lan Kwai Fong, well one day.. im gonna visit each of them inside my pictures.
as it was still early.. about 10. there wasnt many people. mostly tourists and 'gwai lous'.
this was taken in Tsim Tsa Tsui. Park Lane. it was really cold.
Tsim Tsa Tsui.
i dont remember.
Lan Kwai Fong. i love all of you.
The best night-life one could get.
i wonder how the occupants could stay in a place that never sleeps.
Lost in Time~ where were you on this very day on 1997?
Nude is Rude. i thought that this is the most interesting boutique in Lan Kwai Fong.
Chocolate. must be a hit with the locals? i dont know. but i would visit it.
I like this too. I thought that its a really good name for a bar/club. it doesnt at all reminds me of Lux soap. like seriously.
whats the name of this sparkly shop?
Fred Perry. if only it was open. i want the Amy Winehouse for Fred Perry collection. what a shame.
i forgotten what it's call. walk of stars or sth. lazy to google it.
im hungry. this isnt my food. it's biboy's. i should have ordered this too.
this is elizabeth wong. which i've known well her ever since she was born. very smart student in one of the local Uni's here. she could very well be the next elizabeth wong. no.. im serious. it's not just the name im talking about here.
nothing but cold. i could barely feel my toes.
:)
i guess there's something very nostalgic in this corner. in Lan Kwai Fong.
Vegetarian food. to me it tasted more delicious than the real thing. surprisingly.
Metropark.
.This is what i ordered. and i couldnt finish it. the chili oil was spicier than chili padi.
Hello Bruce Lee.
Gor Gor.. Y U NO handprint?
surprisingly, Cecilia has very long and thin fingers with a smaller palm. longer and smaller than mine.
this must be a place where they play mahjong?
the 'ting ting' bus. i took it because this particular one was really pretty in real life. it has pink and dark blue stripes.
what is love?
Central. the best place in HK. if one has the money.
:)
:)
took it when i was inside the 'ting ting' bus.
inside a moving 'ting ting'.
looking out
from
a moving 'ting ting'. i guess this is what my memories looks like.
Goodbye Mcdull. Till we meet again.. soon. so you just stay where you are, be good boy.
~ you left me in the dark on the shadows of your heart
we had wanted to go for a movie. but the timing was off and surprisingly, the tics were more than twice the price here. *outside the cinema*
a woman from China who made this. i was told that all the different characters were of the same meaning, just from a different time and era.
my guess is there was already glue on top of the paper. as the white powder did not get blown away from the occasional strong wind.
Biboy. the most entertaining travel companion you can find. very smart too. who tells me that he thinks that physics is more diverse than biology. well, i dont know.. but its a good thing that one has an opinion in academic subjects. i remember that my fave subject was literature (tho in our Malaysian education, the lits we read was nothing but infantile). and recess. that was it.
tsim tsa tsui.
i couldnt recall where that was.
i couldnt recall this either. tho the "K" mart was everywhere.
at a complex in Tsim Tsa Tsui. i should have remembered the name since i've been there trice. but no.. (am not wearing lipstick, just a lipbalm .. anymore colder my lips would have turn white).
hong kong steamboat. the steamboat in Malaysia sucks.
beef slices. i think it was called the 'creamy' or 'milky' beef slice in canton.
Duck intestines.
Welcome to Lan Kwai Fong.
and in these pics from below. i tried to test my skills in taking pictures. well... i thought all of them was not bad for a first timer, to be honest. but then again its all personal preferences aint it.
Hard Rock in HK. i have yet to visit.
the places that i took in Lan Kwai Fong, well one day.. im gonna visit each of them inside my pictures.
as it was still early.. about 10. there wasnt many people. mostly tourists and 'gwai lous'.
this was taken in Tsim Tsa Tsui. Park Lane. it was really cold.
Tsim Tsa Tsui.
i dont remember.
Lan Kwai Fong. i love all of you.
The best night-life one could get.
i wonder how the occupants could stay in a place that never sleeps.
Lost in Time~ where were you on this very day on 1997?
Nude is Rude. i thought that this is the most interesting boutique in Lan Kwai Fong.
Chocolate. must be a hit with the locals? i dont know. but i would visit it.
I like this too. I thought that its a really good name for a bar/club. it doesnt at all reminds me of Lux soap. like seriously.
whats the name of this sparkly shop?
Fred Perry. if only it was open. i want the Amy Winehouse for Fred Perry collection. what a shame.
i forgotten what it's call. walk of stars or sth. lazy to google it.
im hungry. this isnt my food. it's biboy's. i should have ordered this too.
this is elizabeth wong. which i've known well her ever since she was born. very smart student in one of the local Uni's here. she could very well be the next elizabeth wong. no.. im serious. it's not just the name im talking about here.
nothing but cold. i could barely feel my toes.
:)
i guess there's something very nostalgic in this corner. in Lan Kwai Fong.
Vegetarian food. to me it tasted more delicious than the real thing. surprisingly.
Metropark.
This is what i ordered. and i couldnt finish it. the chili oil was spicier than chili padi.
Hello Bruce Lee.
Gor Gor.. Y U NO handprint?
surprisingly, Cecilia has very long and thin fingers with a smaller palm. longer and smaller than mine.
this must be a place where they play mahjong?
the 'ting ting' bus. i took it because this particular one was really pretty in real life. it has pink and dark blue stripes.
what is love?
Central. the best place in HK. if one has the money.
:)
:)
took it when i was inside the 'ting ting' bus.
inside a moving 'ting ting'.
looking out
from
a moving 'ting ting'. i guess this is what my memories looks like.
Goodbye Mcdull. Till we meet again.. soon. so you just stay where you are, be good boy.
