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sumtimes i do feel really vulnerable... but.. fuck it.. it's strong to be vulnerable sometimes.. my fren said..
sumtimes i don't really know wat people are thinking.... but come to think of it.. they wouldn't know wat im thinking either..
it's the same.....

happy shopping!!!

i made peace with it.. after like.. dunno, few days after .. and we don't need to be talking either.. no, we don't. preferably not. ( i realized that i didn't need to put my heart on my sleeves, not with this fish anyways) and those 'excuse' , pretty lame..lol.. ur just... erm..i realized, i dunno..kinda weird i guess.. i may be wrong tho.. perhaps it was me, not u.. but i do think im rite.. this time. :p

new year shopping.. havent done any yet... new year camera.. havent bought any yet.. sony or canon?? i was weighing the pros and cons for a very long time..new year shoes.. it's a must every year.. so they said.. lolz
everything's anew.. on the next brand new year.. and my hair.. not gonna dye it again.. lurve the color already.. trimming it only next month then.. new year hairstyles are also a must.. this is wat i say la..
new purse too.. but havent come across any that i like tho.. and new set of lingeries.. :)
hav a feeling im gonna be spending much more than last year..
ohh.. christmas havent come then talk about new year d..

=D

yeap.. i did work yesterday.. for the premiere of 'australia' in pavilion..pretty easy job.. pay wasn't bad either..

sumtimes i think that life shud be simple, because human can be really complicated at times.

and in simplicity comes beauty.. and there is beauty in simplicity.. and im talkin crapz now.. but its the truth tho.. it really shud be just that simple..

and thoughts could be simple too.. but not the mind.. if u get wat i mean.. if we were to take the complication out of the context.. and just focus on things as it is, even though we may not be too certain of wat it is exactly.

imo, as sometimes its just not necessary to delve into deep thoughts, thinking simply on the surface or a lil below and just chill.. does not really mean that ur shallow or some sort.and we would minus all the hassle.. it depends actually.. come to think of it..

and christmas is coming!!!!!!! not that i usually celebrate it tho..

and i dream of cars and houses this morning.. and if i were to go into the freudian theory.. then my dreams could hav been some sort of subconcious stuffs.. and cars and houses and colors would be some sort of symbols of explicit contents and hidden desires or watever..

lets see, there's the yellow orangy car, the milky white one, and the red car.. not to mention the really dark hued car. and the first two former was a sportcar of the same brand and the last two latter was .. yea.. one of my fav brands. and houses were white. not with white picket fences tho.. lol.

it's a fri nite.. goin out to cynna.. as much as i do enjoy my solitary.. haha..

and nopee, i didnt went to cynna.. but, went to mont kiara with my ji mui, suddenly.. lolz, was fun..

never assume people

i'll work tomoro if i can get the rite outfits..
and im thinking.. perhaps u expected too much from me. or what i should be, perhaps it were somewhat high enough to dissolve the illusions that u once held. maybe there was too lil to start with..realized that sooner or later the same stuffs might surface.
too bad then. no big loss for us i guess.. :P


~ and i felt relieved, despite it all.. surprisingly..~

pokerface?

went to kenneth's place after their prom.. i didnt go.. ohh.. kinda regreted i didnt went, didnt hav the time to buy a dress for it.. but nevemind, neXt year then, haha...

finally learned how to play poker.. thanks to marcus and frens lol... now poker is way more easier than 'cho tai di'... nice..... never really learned how to master 'cho tai di' by da way.. since young.. but.. never been a big fan of gambling tho..

ahh.. work on thurs.. then go chill after that... lolz..
neways.. i really wanna do sth constructive during hols.. altho i said that i wouldn't wanna.. (yea me change all the time) at the same time being able to relax..
make full use of it.. >.<

anyways.. i was a bit curios bout sumthin.. like.. wat triggers it.. seriously. i hav no idea.. wish i could find out tho.. cos sumtimes, there is nothing we can do about it.. cos.. there could be a lot of factors.. in the meanwhile.. i just fuck it laa... couldn't care less.. erm, rite?? :P

happy holidays !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

its a holiday.. my examz are over.. and well, like.. honestly.. i think i did good in my exams.. all those sleepless nites were worthwhile..
and now, im a free woman.. lolz.. well, kinda..
i'ved got a confession to make... for the past few days.. i kinda lost track of the date and....... tonite.. i thought that it was still november without giving it much thought... omg!! now thats really... i dunno.. no comment.. :p
ahhhh.. me and my 'blonde' moments...


shit denise.. ur gonna so freaking laugh at me again if u see this post.. and stop saying that ur a brunette while im a blonde.. u biatch!!!!! its just 'moments' okayy.. lol

random random...

random facts

i am somewhat high in sensation seeking, thrills , excitement to adventure.. and ppl like mua has a tendency to agress..

i tend to look.. er.. blur sumtimes (or maybe, usually)

am pretty spontaneous..

luvs to procrastinate...

tend to be pretty darn vocal at some times..

i do hav my quiet moments..i find overtly hyper people pretty annoying.. well, if they act in an annoying way la that is...

im a sucker for romance.. like.. really..tend to be rather picky tho.. :p

i kinda live by these two sets of rules
'always giv people the benefit of the doubt, never be too quick to judge.'
'always be nice to the people who made your life nicer.'

one must always constantly improve oneself..

always appreciate people who likes you as you are.. for those who don't then, ohh.. too bad, i guess..yeaa.. tough luck...

unfortunately, often am quick to judge a person positively than negatively..
i tend to just look at the good side of people and dismiss the bad..
which may makes me rather ingenuous..

i do things on impulses..

luvs being an only child. =)

is life shaped on fate and destiny or purely based on our own actions?

tend to go paranoid at times..

believes that what we see and what we hear will eventually come out from our mouth...

life.. can be ironic.. especially mine..

sometimes.. i feel slightly vulnerable then the rest..

but.. life is good afterall.. lol.

used to be an idealist in pretty much everything in life.. used to..

used to believe in soulmates when i was like.. really young too.. not too sure now tho..

no, am not emo bout any shit anymore.. someone just pulled me out..or was i the one who pulled myself out?one day u wake up, it just does not hurt anymore.. and you didn't even realise it until you thought about it. and then u'll just go like.. 'fuck it la.. watever'.. :D

most times, i do take much pride in myself for just being me.

i think i can be pretty vain at times.. at least i admit it.. and i'm kinda narcissistic too.. ;p

i don't feel that insecure anymore.. :D

i tend to daydream.. but doesn't most gals? i dunnop..

i do hav a rather huge ego.. for a gal.. which i ain't proud of it anyway..

surprisingly, those around me says that i ain't bitchy enuff towards those who's... erm.. a bitch or an ass?? lol.. it pays to be a bitch sometimes, they say.. oh well.. i'll try? haha..

sometimes people just come for a 'reason' in your life, stays for that 'reason' and then leaves after their 'task' is done.. you ought to just be thankful that at least.. they did their part, and that ur ends were meet. well, sometimes laa.. not all. generally..

i wouldn't wanna go to far bout this thing.. or else.. again.. i may appear evidently sheer and ingenuous..

one shoudn't reveal oneself too much... :P

exams on sat and mon..short holidays after that.. could prolly catch a movie or two or just.. sleep, drink and eat.. fuck..errr.. no. lolz..and do nothing too constructive..

okayy......... enough of my extended post of pure randomness.. sleepy, nap first..


krys

quote

~people are never who they seem they are.
be wary. be alert. trust a few, heighten your senses with the others.
people come and people go. it's their choice.
we cannot do anything should people want to disappear from our lives.
all we can do is keep in contact with those who do give a fuck.~



(eric wong) ;P

lapse

was somewhat enthralled by some discoveries i would say.. albeit being a casual occassion..
until the end of it..
well.. either way.. knew that i wouldn't quite know how to react to it..
and then my ego was talking.. shud just hav swallowed it up instead.. darn........