humans are complicated in nature.. with so much standards set in today's society.. i guess it's best to just be yourself. and learn from the past in order to avoid making the same mistakes. but what happens if that someone could not accept you for who you are? "just fuck it, cos life's just too short" someone told me.
sometimes after the blur, only do we tend to see things clearly. or perhaps its only when you are screwed that people would come up to you and say "you've just been fucking screwed".
and why was it such a blur before? perhaps those were merely illusions that u gave yourself. and with the help of some booze. illusions became contradictions.
sometimes you would still wonder.. whats the purpose of all the unpleasant things that had happened to you? even though deep down, you know that it's necessary, that it would mold you into the person that you are supposed to be in the present or the future. i had my ups and downs. no doubt i had a changed of perception and thoughts. i've became heartless. my last ex is nothing but a memory to me. given the chance, i am contented with what has happened. i bled. but i healed. i am cynical. but i still believe in the good of people. i still believe in true love that lasts a lifetime or maybe a few. screw them who tells you that love does not last forever. but life is irony. so is love. i Am cynical after all.
