sometimes on certain days, i would have random thoughts that i would make a mental note to jot it down in this blog. i guess 80 percent of it never made it here. i guess that's what a blog is about right? putting down random thoughts? well at least most blogs are. that's why almost everyone has a blog right? because putting down random thoughts and pictures or where we've been, what we ate, posting about first loves and break ups. or bitching about others. or having a point of view. these are the easiest things that one could write about. nobody is required to write about rocket science or dissertation in their blogs. unless if you want to.
well as for me, i guess it's all of the above? apart from the rocket science thing, of course. i cant say much about the stupid/ intelligence factor about myself, because everyone who thinks that they are smart, must have felt stupid at some point in their lives, or vice versa. but i think that sometimes, "smart" is more of a point of view, than an actuality.
i've read blogs of ppl, mostly ppl my age, or older.. and they would have random aha-moments, like "i wonder if .. or i feel that people are.. bla bla bla.. how come this and that.. why am i here .. etc.". and then they would feel real proud of themselves, like whoa.... what kind of mad existentialist genius am i to have thought about that? most times i would read it and would silently go.. yea, girl.. i thought about that too when i was 5. so whats the big hoo-haa here about?
the thing is, if anybody can think of any thoughts in this world, however weird or random or profound even. chances are, these thoughts have existed a long time ago, or if you're lucky enough, just a few days old. from a far far away land or just 2 blocks away. chances are, nothing is original. so the first person who invented the handphone may not really be the first person that came up with the idea. chances are, many many years ago, someone had actually thought about it, and he may not be the first person who came up with the idea either, it was the previous previous person. seriously, same goes to
i guess having thoughts is one of the easiest thing that a human could do. in fact, its way much more harder to free your mind from thoughts and to just let your mind hang empty. it's how a person strings its thoughts together and to be able to illustrate it in a way that everyone almost could. well, almost. but could not have got it out. and it must all be done in a coherent manner, otherwise it's just mad ramblings and teenage thoughts. no offense to the teenagers out there. but that's just my opinion anyways.
that's how it is isnt it? where people would get really in awe in a certain sentence they read, or certain songs they listen. they would go " oh, you speak exactly what my mind was trying to say" or" you speak what's in my heart that my mind couldnt speak" or " it makes me realize of thoughts or emotions that i never realized i would have". it's always after they hear or read of certain things that they would feel this way isnt it? its never before, always after. perhaps most humans operate on just half- thoughts? hence we all have a subconscious? or perhaps they are all too busy to tend to the bigger problems in life, careers, families, mortgages. that's why it's always an author/ novelist/ artist/ filmmakers job to handle such idle thoughts. perhaps such thought are for the idle people, i guess that's why most teenagers has a blog, writing frivolous thoughts. ranting about how unfair the world is or write wannabe songs. some aspiring to write wannabe movies.
or for people like me. unemployed, free from the encumbrances of being a student, free of mortgages, free of the pressure of climbing up the career or social ladder. yet still full of worries about the present or the future. why? i have loans and liabilities too, liabilities that i know that i wouldnt be able to pay presently, if not for my dad. but that has been the least of my problems. for now.
