the obsolete

i realized that i.. and this makes me dislike the fact that i.. never in a million years would i have thought of.. because at first i thought that.. and still felt.. and you seemed.. so i thought.. and i shouldn't have had.. but either way it wouldn't be pretty..





now how more ironic can it get? time indeed changes everything. it changes feelings and it changes perceptions. anyone who knows my story will indeed tell you that it is as ironic that it gets.. that irony could have been my middle name..








but i really do..







~ sometimes.. the more things seem to change.. the more they stay the same.. ~

Vered

Didi singing "Rhiannon"




Ever since the beginning, i've always thought that ryan seacrest has the hots for this really pretty gal. there is this certain chemistry between them that you can only find between the opposite sexes. maybe? it sure looks obvious enough to me. im thinking that it happened after didi's sweet sweet performance on 'the way i am' by ingrid michealson.
i fell in lurve with her after that sweet performance. i wonder if im the only one who thinks that.. this whole ryan and didi thing. XD

Way to go.. Ryan!!

the realm of a long lost dream

she is not alice

they are not alice

i am not alice

where do i find alice?

i used to dream of alice many times

alice was running

and the wind blew the card soldiers away

and i woke up

i was alice

i wanted to be her

has she grown up?

i wanna be alice.

The blackout

~ i felt it.
the wire touch my neck and
then someone pulled it tighter
i never saw it coming
i started to black out and
then someone say good morning
i took it as a warning
i should have seen it coming
So now I'll take a chance on
this thing we may have started.
Intentional or not I
don't think we saw it coming. ~





~ Long Shot ~

The year that awaits

the year of the tiger is coming very soon.. i enjoyed every bit of last ox's year.. after all.. i was in love with an ox. last year.
i wonder what would the tiger bring to this rabbit. XD this year would be a new beginning. i start anew. taking things as it comes. keeping my feet on the ground but looking far out at the same time. living life with no regrets.




~ a shooting star.. me and you.. such brilliant flames that turns to dust ~

The Contradicting

humans are complicated in nature.. with so much standards set in today's society.. i guess it's best to just be yourself. and learn from the past in order to avoid making the same mistakes. but what happens if that someone could not accept you for who you are? "just fuck it, cos life's just too short" someone told me.
sometimes after the blur, only do we tend to see things clearly. or perhaps its only when you are screwed that people would come up to you and say "you've just been fucking screwed".
and why was it such a blur before? perhaps those were merely illusions that u gave yourself. and with the help of some booze. illusions became contradictions.
sometimes you would still wonder.. whats the purpose of all the unpleasant things that had happened to you? even though deep down, you know that it's necessary, that it would mold you into the person that you are supposed to be in the present or the future. i had my ups and downs. no doubt i had a changed of perception and thoughts. i've became heartless. my last ex is nothing but a memory to me. given the chance, i am contented with what has happened. i bled. but i healed. i am cynical. but i still believe in the good of people. i still believe in true love that lasts a lifetime or maybe a few. screw them who tells you that love does not last forever. but life is irony. so is love. i Am cynical after all.

BB

today is the day where i finally gotten my blackberry.. ^^ amongst other good stuff that had happened at this very day. there could be no wrongs in my decision today.

~I like to think that somewhere out there, on a planet exactly like ours, two people exactly like you and me made totally different choices and that, somewhere, we're still together. ~

That's enough for me.