The blackout

~ i felt it.
the wire touch my neck and
then someone pulled it tighter
i never saw it coming
i started to black out and
then someone say good morning
i took it as a warning
i should have seen it coming
So now I'll take a chance on
this thing we may have started.
Intentional or not I
don't think we saw it coming. ~





~ Long Shot ~

The year that awaits

the year of the tiger is coming very soon.. i enjoyed every bit of last ox's year.. after all.. i was in love with an ox. last year.
i wonder what would the tiger bring to this rabbit. XD this year would be a new beginning. i start anew. taking things as it comes. keeping my feet on the ground but looking far out at the same time. living life with no regrets.




~ a shooting star.. me and you.. such brilliant flames that turns to dust ~

The Contradicting

humans are complicated in nature.. with so much standards set in today's society.. i guess it's best to just be yourself. and learn from the past in order to avoid making the same mistakes. but what happens if that someone could not accept you for who you are? "just fuck it, cos life's just too short" someone told me.
sometimes after the blur, only do we tend to see things clearly. or perhaps its only when you are screwed that people would come up to you and say "you've just been fucking screwed".
and why was it such a blur before? perhaps those were merely illusions that u gave yourself. and with the help of some booze. illusions became contradictions.
sometimes you would still wonder.. whats the purpose of all the unpleasant things that had happened to you? even though deep down, you know that it's necessary, that it would mold you into the person that you are supposed to be in the present or the future. i had my ups and downs. no doubt i had a changed of perception and thoughts. i've became heartless. my last ex is nothing but a memory to me. given the chance, i am contented with what has happened. i bled. but i healed. i am cynical. but i still believe in the good of people. i still believe in true love that lasts a lifetime or maybe a few. screw them who tells you that love does not last forever. but life is irony. so is love. i Am cynical after all.

BB

today is the day where i finally gotten my blackberry.. ^^ amongst other good stuff that had happened at this very day. there could be no wrongs in my decision today.

~I like to think that somewhere out there, on a planet exactly like ours, two people exactly like you and me made totally different choices and that, somewhere, we're still together. ~

That's enough for me.

get what you want with your lucky eyes

individuality is vitally important. When people start to lose their individuality, they start to lose themselves.
- Brittany Murphy

well, what can i say.. she is my most fav person in the world from afar..
my one true idol..
there's always something about her genuineness and vulnerability that stands out from the rest of the world.. seemingly unfazed by the glitz and the glam of hollywood.
perhaps it was the highs and lows that killed her..
or perhaps her presence was just to beautiful for this world..
indeed she had always strike a cord in my heart the first time i saw her movie many years ago when i was a little gal..
who am i to judge her?

~ may your soul rest in peace..~

The Dewdrops

how does it feel having your secrets safe with you?

i have so much faith in you..
forgive me.. i may be wrong..






but i think i just fucking saved your life..







~In order to do really great things, you need to make really great mistakes..~

eleanor. nayrb

fuck i love this song.

Fine, I understand, okay with me, if that's the plan. You can take the stereo, the TV and the video, the bed the sheets and pillows, before you go. But for now, unlock the door, what are we doin' all this for? Let me make you dinner one last time, then you'll go your way, and I'll go mine.

And I won't call you baby, anymore, won't call you baby, like I did before, won't call you baby, anymore, Eleanor. You left your smell, you left your taste, you left me here with my mistakes. And I can't relate to what you say I've done, but just for you, I'll bite my tongue.

And I won't call you baby, anymore, won't call you baby, like I did before, won't call you baby, anymore, Eleanor. Eleanor I miss you, Eleanor be well, Eleanor I wish you'd release me from your spell.

* i muse at myself now looking back, calling myself eleanor when i was a little girl, way before this song.. weird. i wasn't contented with krystal. back then.

fuck adam cohen is so hottttt!!!!!!!!!!!! i wanna marry him. wake up* blink blink*

~ ur moving way too fast at the wrong lane.. but i wouldn't mind if ur at the rite way..~