words and stickers

well, yes.. i am in luv.. and i am adding this image for him.. just for fun..lolz..

and its been 10 days since i saw him... damn...

well, i thought it looks kinda cute..couldn't really help it but to post it here.. =P

Dreams I

~what happens when reality is better than the dreams that u dreamed..?~

~ was it because most of your dreams are nightmares... or was it because the world that you live in is full of wonderment and joy and one of the things that makes us human.. hope.. ~

Happy Birthday to my Paramour. 21st of March

Happy birthday to Mr Bryan Lee!!!!!!!!!!! xoxo

kinda sucky that i can't spend ur b day with u..

~ seems like you'll have the time of your life.. no doubt bout it.. maybe not tonite.. but on every
other days to come...~

i luv you...

thinking out loud

~ just when you thought you know, things actually are the other way round..~
~ but just when you thought that you didn't know, you realize that you knew it all by heart
afterall..~
~ so you figured out to just shut up and listen.. and think as silent as possible.. for fear that the
other could hear your thoughts..~

the fear you won't fall

and i feel really ......... rite now.. and the......... seems to get deeper and real as the seconds passes by.. and i know that only one thing would take away these feelings.. but yet it seems.. it ain't happening now, in this very second as im typing it here right now..
i really want this feeling to go away.. is it just me and the devil in my head or.. is this really reality?
fuck.. im rambling like there's no ends here.. now i fucking sound like a damsel in distress.. and most of them would'nt hav a damn idea on what im talking about rite now..
and im trying my best to get a grip of myself... i just wanna know the outcome for tonite or tomorrow nite.. and i seriously miss him like fuck sometimes.. and tonite is especially the nite.. with a mixture of........ and im wondering... is it relevant the way that im feeling rite now..




and this is the most recent pic taken of me.. for those who says that there is no pic in my blog! with esther dear.. in poppy.. dun really feel the hype about clubbing these days anymore.. (and no, im not a hardcore clubber.. never was neways)

lost and found

~ i asked you for directions, you lied.
the best time to find yourself is when you're lost..~

~ i found you along with finding myself.. or rather.. the other way round..~

~ i wasn't lost anymore ever since then..~

like whipped cream

~ i didn't know why i was quiet and self- conscious (in other words, shy) when i went into the car.. i couldn't even dare to look at his face while he was looking at me.. for fear of letting him look thru me.. for some unknown reasons i was feeling rather coy that nite.. and rather transparent..
he asked me why was i blushing.. as if it was the first time that we are together?..~
~i didn't know what to say.. except for feeling more blushed and covered my mouth with my hand.. while trying for an attempt to come up with a quick answer to his question.. (which i did not anyhow) was surprised at myself.. such ardor and emotions.. those funny sensations that i felt.. while trying to tone it down at the same time..~
~ i've got to admit that i felt silly in those 15 mins.. ~ >.< ~ and i wondered if he knew how and what i felt...~
~ sometimes i feel in awe.. sometimes i get bedazzled.. sometimes i get butterflies in my stomach, while feeling absolutely comfy with you..~

~just like starfruits.. and strawberries.. and chocolate cakes.. and whipped cream.. and fruit juice with salt on it.. and water..~