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im am feeling restless.... i actually logged to the net to search something uo just now.. but then.. i totally forgotten bout what wat i wanted to look up on. it just disappeared.. and i hav been feeling pretty restless these days. it's like i wanna be in this place, but when im here.. i wanna be there.. if im there.. i wanna be in another place.. once i got to that other place i wanna be back at where i was before i wanted to be in that other place. it's like wanting to be outside when im at home, but once im out, i would prefer to stay in my own room.. i wonder hav you guys ever felt that way often..
i often told my cousin D that i often feel misunderstood, like a misunderstood being.. and she often says the reason why i always feels misunderstood is because i don't often state myself clearly. that i tend to be vague and contradicting at times.. and i am wondering whether its true, or am i just misunderstood this time again.
exam coming this week, and then .. there's the god damn fucking assignments.. im starting to feel pretty agitated.. but everyone in my class is gonna go thru it too.. so there's really nothing to complain about.. yea..
and she was goin thru sum cases of low self-esteem lately.. but she is good now, i wonder when will it start again.. as she would often plunge into it once in a while... self esteem issues aren't my issues these days anymore, i hav no qualms with it.. thats like.. one of the last things on my mind.. well, except for the 'fat' issue.. i still think i need to lose weight.. altho i had lost sum already recently.. 5 feet 5 = 51 kg. so tell me.. is that fat? if i were to ask me, i would say.. certainly not.. but just not thin enuff, the reality is. so im gonna study more.. eat less these days.. and sleep more.. sometimes the lack of sleep can really screw things up and makes u bitchy, even tho u may not be a bitch.. and the effects of sleeping overboard can make u feel lazy.. i'ved been feeling pretty lazy and unmotivated today and yesterday.. it was the effect of oversleeping due to the results of lack of sleep. it's just like a vicious cycle.. so what am i goin thru now? i still feel scattered, restless and lazy.. damn. but i certainly don't think that im talking nonsense rite now. just being random.. come to think of it.. this is one of the most random post that i'ved posted.. more randomness to come next time i guess..
im so gonna go spend that 20% topshop bday voucher tomoro.. after i had done my revisions.. i'll be dead if i don't do well in it.
yay.. finally gotten my imported amy winehouse cd yesterday.. im a big fan of hers.. heart her. not many gets her type of genre tho. especially her style. darn.. im random-ing again ..