a lil dedication to..

Dear Vito,



Happy birthday!

Thank you for all the words and wisdom that you've given me.

you're the best 'vito' one could ever ask for.

I wish you all the best in everything you do,
and that life would be as kind to you as possible.





xoxo

krys

I threw it away

again, am blogging from my blackberry. and the past few times that i've been blogging from my phone consist of me laying in my room, with the lights off. usually the decision to blog stems from insomnia.. or from too much thinking, too much thoughts goin inside my head. especially at moments like these, where i would resort to creating senseless composition like these, senseless in the sense where there ain't directions, i hav no idea how this post would began, and how it is goin to end afterwards. as im texting these words..

usually this would be the case if im doin up a post from my bb. i don't have a topic in hand, so i'll just let my thoughts wander.

up till now, i've noticed that its only when i have too much thoughts inside that i would resort to blogging. it does help to ease some of it, to a certain extent. its rather like writing in a diary. speaking of which, i've been writing in journals ever since i was 8, me and a classmate, we used to write it, and exchange it for each of us to read. so its kinda like... we were actually writing it for the other person to read, not so much of writing for ourselves or to write down our deepest thoughts or secrets but more of thinking of what to write for that person to see today (we would write in it every night and show it to each other tomorrow in class)

of course, as a child back then, i couldnt make out the difference. it was all the same to me. and i didnt realise i was writing only what i thought she'll like to read, or that all that we ever wrote about was how happy we were and how the best of friends we were. to me, those were exactly what a diary should be. i dont remember much of what i wrote after that, or what she wrote. i dont remember how long our diary routine lasted either. or how it suddenly stop, was it gradual, or abbrupt?

of the things i do remember, was how that diary looked like. it has a box that holds a beautiful book inside. best of all, it had a lock with a pair of keys. a lock which could be opened merely by using a hairpin. lol.

i do remember how i felt at that time, the excitement of the prospect of exchanging diaries with a best friend. i remember that there was no unhappy thoughts inside that diary. only good and happy thoughts, of sincere wishes to the friend, and of how lucky and blessed this 8 years old kid had felt. i managed to block out all the not so happy ones, the deep secrets that i kept, and somehow when i was writing in it, only my happiness, the people that've made me happysuch as my parents and relatives, and my 'best friend' existed.

Marchesa Resort 2012

One of my fav color. Mint green. starting this post off in a rather self-centered tone. i reckon that this dinner dress would be perfect for me. or rather, the other way round. my skin thrives in cool-toned colors. all i need in extra is just a pair of nude colored stilettos.




i think that the embellishment on the shoulders would be perfect for broad or narrow shoulders, as the former helps to enhance and the latter helps to camouflage. now all you need is a pair of long legs.



again, i have a thing for pale yellow dresses, altho that may not necessarily look as good on me as it is on others. yellow isn't my best color.



This one.. honestly, it is perfect enough even if one wears it as a wedding gown. my favourite piece in the sum of the resort collection.



again, pale yellow dresses..




i think that, one may find this not as beautiful as the rest, but i don't know.. it looks really nice to me.



i think that every girls should at least attempt on wearing animal prints once in their life. and this is one of the best edition of prints that i've seen as compared to other leopard print dresses.

One of my fav color. this isn't light pink if you look closely. it's a soft shade of rose blush pink that is neither a 'cool-tone' or 'warm'.




If only one could afford Marchesa right?


i've noticed, from my previous post till now, some of the clothes may be somewhat similar in style and patterns. i realized that, i only pick styles that i like or one that i would foresee myself wearing. and by merely writing about fashion or posting up pictures of dresses that i like, a form of 'pattern' or style could be traced from the previous posts. it makes me realized which type of clothes would be my ideal and which type of clothes that i wouldn't even imagine myself wearing.

i used to be 'all over the place' when it comes to fashion, choosing things at the spur of the moment and not really knowing what i like or dislike as long as it looked good to me at that moment or it that would be depended on the influence of other people. i believe many girls are the same way too, and many older women as well. so i would suggest to any girls who wants to find their sense of style or to be familiar with their style preferences could cut out pictures of clothes or people wearing what they like and put it in a scrapbook, if they don't own a fashion blog ( or in my case, a personal blog where i post almost everything inside, like a 'rojak').
well, just a piece of suggestion to the fashion enthusiast. other wise, why bother, right? some would have far more important hobbies to pursue, say.. Dota or stamp-collecting ( which i did too in the past).

the shoes that reminds me of

its been quite a while ever since i last posted anything here, been contemplating on posting up on about marchesa(one of my fav designer brands, well if you ask me, it's fashion that i luv, not so much of being brand conscious or materialistically conscious, but here's the thing,with fashion, you can't eliminate the brands. because the latest trends are researched and dream up by high- end designers who then turns it to reality, then.. inspired, or rather.. copied by high - street brands like zara, topshop or unbranded items that are imported from places like hk or taiwan, hence reaching commoners like me..or you, perhaps? so i think there's a distinction between being brand- conscious and loving clothes. ) fall/ winter '2011 collection last night, but decided to catch up reading on candace bushnell's one fifth avenue instead.

i do admit that it's not as tho i hav been super busy every day, but with all the exams and assignments due every week, sometimes you just wanna curl up in bed and read a book instead after completing what needs to be done. any further procrastination tho, it will soon be spring / summer' 2012 instead when im only about to review on the fall collection.

currently blogging from my phone, i can't decide if this is more convenient or the laptop. i've never really been that technologically inclined or interested in terms of the latest laptops, the latest gadgets or the latest processors, so long it's not a celeron or something equivalent. part of the reason why i decided on forgoing an ipad 2. * and partly because i decided it was better for me as a student to save up my rm2000+ coupled with the casing.*

i've noticed that many blogs gets abandoned after several years, i will never abandon my blog, and no matter how busy or not life gets in the future.. i will always come back.

sometimes it does

i woke up all of a sudden just now and turned to look at my phone.* its 4 am*. *screw the time stated in my blog it's off*. waking up at wee hours in the morning ain't that much peculiar to me.sometimes it does happen to me. but most of the time (at this hour especially) i would be pigging away. so i thought of being here for a while before i head back to dreamland. tho i do admit that i was more of a late sleeper in the past *and sometimes in the present* but i do try to sleep early recently.. say.. like around 12 to 1 plus at night?..

and i think its time i start using an eyecream.. in the mean time, i think i better head back to sleep. perhaps i'll go back to that place again.. as a kid, i remember i sometimes used to dream i was alice ( it was my favourite classic) and i would find myself in wonderland, and the queen of hearts and her troop of cards would be there, albeit always being a slighter different version. i suppose it's safe to say that i wanted my own wonderland, so i dreamed one up.afterall.. that was krystal's dream. not alice's. ever since, i never managed to go back there again.

till september ends

it's already september. and my birthday is getting nearer by the day.. 23 more days, and i will be 24. well not that im happily looking forward to it. im one of those people who dread birthdays. which is ironic because when i was a child, my birthday is the only one thing that i had looked forward to (beside chinese new year, which i have come to dread *secretly*) and especially on the morning of my birthday, i would wake up with a smile plastered my face and i would felt like the luckiest little girl in the whole wide world. i just felt so lucky and happy, come to think of it now, i wonder where did all the happiness came from, i think it's wonderful that children are such 'happy pistachios' and one moment they'll be crying, and before you know it.. they'll resume to being a 'happy pistachio' :D. i guess that's part of the reasons why i luv being around children, somehow being with them takes my mind off whatever thoughts or situation that was bothering me at that moment. i remember that there was once that i went to a place where it is sorta like an orphanage/daycare center for one of my psych projects a few years ago, teaching/entertaining/playing activities with them.. that sorta stuff. it was satisfying but, i had hoped that we could have done more or stayed for the whole day. okay.. let me be honest here, im not much of a social worker nor am i a goodwill ambassador else i would have gone to be a social worker instead of slaving my years studying materials that would most likely be useless by the time i work. i guess it stems from more of a selfish reason more than anything, besides making the kids happy for the few hours, i was happy too being surrounded by them, if only for a mere few hours. not that i was extremely unhappy. like i've said, it takes my mind off things.

i have ceased on throwing out birthday parties since i was 19. but has maintain on cutting birthday cakes simply cos i like eating cakes, a lot. no party watsoever, just cake-cutting with whoever who were present. well, not that i hate birthday parties.. i dont mind goin to other ppl's. just that my own would be too much of a hassle to me.
as for the 'dreading' thing.. it's a rather weird feeling. it's not that i hate it. im thankful to be alive of course, and im always grateful when people acknowledge my birthday. but deep down inside, there is this tiny part of secret dreading. which i guess i know the reason why. but let this reason be a secret that only the birthday girl knows.



~ blogging takes my mind off things too.. ~

Crème de la Crème #9

Cat deeley in this elegant white frock. the dress is unnamed but she just look so good in it. some individuals look far better in white than the others do, and it's not just the complexion that plays a role in it but the whole vibe of a person. i've seen some rather fair women who looks ordinary and uniformed in white, it's as if nothing stands out and the dress/shirt might as well be viewed on a hanger. and looked better! imho, women with yellowish fair to dark skin-tones should steer clear from off-white dresses, unless it's a top or a shirt and you could pair it up with colors or black. but just not pure white for top and bottom unless "bland " is the word that you're aiming for! everyone can wear white, but not all actually looks good in it, as opposed to black, which everyone can wear and almost everyone looks good in black. i think that white actually complements cat deeley. im just not sure about the shoes tho. a pair of satin heel pumps in any color would had done the dress a better justice.


Mrs. Beckham in victoria beckham shift dress. a true fashion icon. i think she finally found her true calling, being a fashion designer (apart from being a footballer's wife). not by being in spice girls ( even though she had always been my fav spice girls at one time when spice girl and all these girl power hoo-haa was the craze and even tho being in spice girls was what made here famous in the first place), nor having a solo career, an actress nor a model. nothing too avantgarde, just classy and designed with a woman's silhouette in mind. i like how this shift dress is relaxed enough yet doesn't completely hide her curves despite her skinny frame. to be sexy sometimes you don't have to wear everything tight. i also like how she pairs her green frock with nude heels. Vb always steps out in heels. recently been seen wearing flats, reports has surfaced that she has been advised to stop wearing heels due to her slipped disc and back aches. but as a matter of fact, wearing heels in the long term can have detrimental effects on a woman's back and calf muscles. so balance is key. ;)



Clemence poesy in louis vuitton shirt. this ensemble may not be over the top. but i just like this example of how simple key pieces can bring you from anywhere in the day to a movie premier.



Leighton Meester in Vera Wang top, and brian atwood heels. i like how she pairs softness and edginess in her flowy top and black shiny pants. the heels seem a bit too small for her tho.



Frida Pinto in marchesa dress and feragammo pumps. animal prints are back in again for fall 11, so are feminine tones like fuchsia, purple and burgundy. im okay with leopard prints as long as it's not overload.

le ruban blanc

just two days ago, someone told me this story, something that she heard from the radio, which i made me feel like posting it up here. it goes as something like this;

Do you know that one of the most googled sentence in google is actually 'how to forget someone'. and all around the world, in each passing day, there are people out there trying to forget about other people and would search at every nook and cranny for the remedy to miraculously blank out a certain past or someone in their lives. hence one of the most googled sentence 'how to forget someone'. as we all know that google would most often continue the sentence for us before it being fully typed out. but here's the thing, when you actually start typing 'how to forg...' another sentence would then appear ' how to forgive yourself' instead of 'how to forget someone'. perhaps the notion behind this story is that, as common as it may sound 'forgetting someone' is usually near to impossible unless you gotten yourself a head trauma and lost your memory. not to mention the execution of effort to forget someone on purpose also denote the impossibility of not 'remembering', as that person must have been a rather significant someone in your life for you to want to consciously 'unremember' him or her. hence it is better to 'forgive yourself' than to 'forget someone'. or that there are far more people that are interested in 'forgiving yourself' than 'forgetting someone'. :)

so being somewhat curious, i actually attempted to type 'how to forg..' and the first sentence that comes out is..... it's still 'how to forget someone' and 'how to forgive yourself' only comes after 'how to forgive... *a dozen other people*'.

putting the validity of this story aside, i wonder at how much truth or reason there is in this 'forgetting and forgiving story'. whether is there a link between the former and the latter.

i guess that if it was posed as a random question, some might even deny it upfront while secretly having been googled it up in the past in front of their computers when no one is around, when they are truly alone. while the slight embarrassment crept up as you consciously type the letters on how to forget...
as embarrassing as it may be to some people, it certainly takes some form of courage to actually google up these words on how to forget someone. however silly or unnecessary it may be in reality, the sense of the urgency felt at that time won over any after thoughts that may have occurred at a later time. but back to the rationality of this simple story, so whats the link? why do i have to learn to forgive myself if i ever felt the need to forget someone? i wonder..

of course the most ideal outcome would be to forget about someone in a blink of an eye.. be it an estranged lover or someone that had done you a great deal of harm.. vice versa, it could be anything at all. i think that the most crucial thing here does not lie in whether or not we remember someone but rather on how we feel about them as time goes by. it's not just about the significant people in our lives, we would always remember the insignificant people or event in our lives purely due to memory. but it doesn't bother us, does it?

perhaps this is a rather subjective topic, rather modified by individual's mind suited to serve only in certain occasions. perhaps this short random story does ring true on some individuals, that it is better to forgive yourself than to forget about someone. however they may want to see it. or perhaps it is to forgive yourself for the fact that you are never gonna forget about that certain someone, hence save up the googling. i don't have a strong opinion on this one. all i see is just something rather random. a random "food for thought" that may not be relevant in our daily lives. as it encourages us to pick the latter when faced with the former.