the marrow of the heart

~ so they say when 2 people merge together, another personality surface. this third personality becomes what they are.
even if it doesn't blend, somehow they were never the same person like they once were when each goes their separate ways.. because the third dynamics stays. ~

knock you down

~ I never thought I'd be in love like this
When I look at you my mind goes on a trip
Then you came in and knocked me on my face
Feels like I'm in a race but I already won first place

I never thought I fall for you as hard as I did
You got me thinking about our life,our house and kids
Every morning I look at you and smile
Cause boy you came around and you knocked me down ~


well, for the third line of the second verse not technically.. but it's pretty good still.. lolz.. anyway, i will be goin to hong kong this thursday for the first time. one of my very fav countries.^^
pleasantly happy at the thought.. but not really excited. ironically, the thought of being in a plane kinda excites me more.. always lurve traveling on airplane, the longer distance the better. im just worried that i don't have enough money to spend there.. lol.. my holidays are over as soon as i come back from hk.. uugghhh..

~So you gotta take the good with the bad, the happy and the sad
Or will you bring the better future then I had in the past
Cause I don't want to make the same mistakes i did
I don't wanna fall back on my face again~



fragments of lyrics by Keri Hilson~

the faith

i went to the same salon at 'the gardens' cut and dyed my hair in a tone of 'light ash blond' yesterday. well, it ain't really that blond anyway, altho the name says otherwise. no pics to prove it now.. cam went out of battery. but will do in the future. this color is just perfect for me in the meanwhile. but im definately goin darker in the future. mahogany will be just nice.
im starting to love the scent of freshly dyed hair, the scent of hair color chemical somewhat calms me. somehow the future seems more promising every time i get a whiff of my hair. that no matter what would transcend, things wouldn't get so bad. and that everything is a few shades darker in my mind when compared to the reality. sometimes your mind becomes a ball of mess. but sometimes happiness still transcend from all the disarray. perhaps this is also a form of confusion. but then again, perhaps this confusion shouldn't exist. after all, my mind is a few shades darker.

~ beneath this facade.. silently im praying.. that please let there be more than that..~

undecided

am currently enjoying my holidays.. time to unwind and relax.. :)
will be doing my hair the around the next week or so.. am pondering on which salon should i go to this time.. well, not that the previous one at The Gardens wasn't good, just that i'd been wanting to try out a new hair salon.



now that my hair is getting longer.. ahh.. been testing out my new cam these days.. and i wonder.. is it the camera or is it me, why does my nose look big in pic? ;(
somehow i was thinking perhaps it's the model of this camera.. and that with every different camera model takes pictures differently.. or does it not matter at all what model or brand it is.. it solely depends on the physical attributes of the person inside the picture.. somehow, ironically in some kinda twisted thought in my mind, i kinda wish that it wasn't the camera's fault. because if it is then it means i shouldn't hav bought this model and i would start to regret it until i buy another brand new one. which is totally ridiculous especially for no 'valid' enough reasons. "oh hey, you just bought a brand new one that u barely even used yet, why would you go and buy another one?" then i'll go "oh cos, my nose looks big wit this model, perhaps even the other models of the same brand wouldn't". i wonder whether it makes sense.. kinda not so much i guess?
so.. yea.. it's just me.. absolutely nothing to do with my camera.. or was it the angle? =.=

well, okay.. actually i really hate to admit but i do regret buying this color. ( i bought the metallic light brown one.. should hav went with my first choice and gotten the metallic blue one.. darn.. sometimes i just always tend to want the other stuff that i don't have).

perhaps i should take my mind of it already.. okayy then.. what color should i go for, for my hair? what cut should i go for? i can't make up my mind yet also .. =P